I'm going insane

The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.

 

Finding something to occupy my time is not the problem..

I can not explain what my problem is and that is causing me to go insane

 

Okay, so I was right when I said that you couldn't explain why you were feeling this way.
Albino, I've felt the same before. I would just almost literally feel empty, but I didn't know why.
My advice?
Laugh.
I'm serious, simple as that.
Try to find a comedy show or something and just laugh at it.
Laughter is good for you.

 

BECOME DERPY. Talk about being obsessed with oatmeal cookies and forget the past. Copy and paste this message to all of your online friends. Or watch Saturday Night Live if that is a show where you live. It's very funny. It might become your family tradition. Might make you feel better every time you read it:

SORRY BUT IM DELETING YOU FROM MY LIFE! *clicks delete* LOADING... ▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓ 99%. ERROR! It is impossible to delete our friendship. Put this on people's walls who you never want to lose. If you get 3 back, you're an amazing friend

 

Someone please close this thread, No one will ever undersand

 

Okay, I think that I've found a way to explain

I have been homeschooled all my life, because of this I have not had any social contact for most of my life, I've tried going to groups sometimes, but because of my Asperger's, I have a really tough time being around other people, I spent most of my life distracting myself and being on my own, just doing my own thing, But recently I've gotten into this community and I've seen how happy people are when they are around friends, and this made me feel that something was missing from my life, I ended up making a few friends around here, but I've never felt like I've had the true ability to really have fun like many people do, Those simple moments is what I've been missing in life and I saw how much better my life could have been.
After seeing this stuff it makes my life seem quite empty, people often take friends for granted and forget how big they are in their life, knowing that I am a person with next to no social skills makes things really tough to handle.
When I do my hobbies, it fills my time, but it doesn't fill my heart.. Yes I have the ability to make friends, but I don't have the ability to BE friends, to hang out and just have a good time. If you're actually taking the time to read this, comment with your favourite fruit
When I ask for something to do, I ask for something more powerful than just doing what I like, I ask for something that is equal to the joy of friendship and love... But I know that there is nothing that is more powerful or that brings more joy than friendship so I don't know why I asked.
There is not really much that anyone can do to help me, that is up to myself.. But what you can give me is motivation, I have been really down and I need to get back up again, Only I can make my life get on track but I need some support, I can't have everything in life, but I guess I have to work with what I've got, so give me messages of motivation (not just compliments please) and hopefully the old me will come back.


I hope you read all of this, and I hope I explained enough this time

 

Apple or Orange. Maybe Grapes.






Meanwhile...
Albino, you know I have so much trust in you.
And you know that I'm there for you for you to talk.

Granted, you're in a separate time zone. But hey - Send me a message at ANY time, and I'll reply to it as soon as I can.

I have the utmost faith in you and your ability to get through this, happy AND healthy.

 

Albino, although you did mention you can make friends, especially on this server, and although you do want to have friends in real life, if they aren't as good as what you think they are, just remember, we are here for you, and always will be.
Like wolf said, you can contact us through skype and what not, so you won't be far from anyone..
And, if you feel like you need something to do, make a creative flat world, and build things, like what I do.
And if that isn't working, make new skins, and see what you can do.
I made a pikachu+my old skin.
If not, draw the scenery around you, practice drawing, and don't ever give up ^-^
If none of what the above makes you feel better, mention it to whoever, and try to get out there, try to make friends, introduce yourself, don't be afraid, and most importantly, be yourself.
You are genuinely a great friend, and you shouldn't ever think you aren't.
Although we haven't met, although we live somewhat far away, although I don't know your real name, you are one of my friends, and I won't ever think you aren't.
So, in the end, I think you can and will get through this, and come out with some pretty cool friends, cause you are muthafricken albino, you can do anything ^-^

 

Cantaloupe.
Albino, just remember that everything may be extremely difficult, by it's most likely a sign of better things to come. This will eventually be over, I guarantee it.
Also, have you ever heard of the Placebo Effect?
It's scientifically proven that if you simply think you can do something, that will actually help you do it.
For example, scientists gave people who had tooth pains shots that technically did nothing to help, but they told the patients it would, and the patients felt less pain.
So the next time you talk to someone new, just think your mind, "Hey, I can do this. I can have fun with this person, talk to them, etc." Just think what you want to happen.
You have a great personality and are a very likeable person, do I'm certain that you can find many friends if you put your mind to it.
And if all else fails, we will always be here for you to get you right back on track.

 

Make some neighborhood friends. Maybe some kids who live around you! Stop stressing out, and make some friends in your neighborhood. Ask your parents to go to public school! We will always be here for you. If you fail to make friends or to to public school, we will always be here to support you. When you go somewhere, make become friends with a kid around there.

 

Strawberries
Albino, I don't want to be like the rest of the people who are telling you to do something that is hard for you to do.
But I'll tell you some of my background story.. I kind of had a similar issue like you did somewhere in elementary school.. I still do, but it's not very severe. I'm socially awkward, and I have depression due to a lot of childhood trauma. Most of my life I spent being really independent, and friends for me were difficult to make. I always relied on myself for a lot of stuff, and I didn't like being involved with social events. I hated myself, and I still do.
A lot of people in my life started hating me because of my unsocial behavior, so yeah... :/

Here is some motivation:



Don't be like this guy. :)

 

Dragon Fruit

 

Apples.

Albino, if you need to get motivated, the simple answer is to just motivate yourself. Tell yourself in your mind that you are going to go do something. TRY and go to groups of people and talk.

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People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily.
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Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does.
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Peaches.

 

i don't really have a favorite fruit. probably apples.
any who, i see what you're going though. i believe it's a lack of irl fun. if you become more social irl, then you'd make friends and this would be solved within a month or two. don't let your disorder mess your life up. don't.
that's what i think.

 

tell

Telling her to try isn't enough.

 

I'm sorry Albino if my advice sucks. I'm not much of a therapist.. :( Hope you get better. I know you can get out of this dark stage!

 

This is not exactly a dark stage, this is how it's always been, it just hurts me more when I am around other people because they are so happy, happiness that I could never have

 

Oh. ok :(

 

Mango or coconut or strawberry. Late reply, sorry...

I am experiencing it, Albino. Depression like that is serious. In your case, you're unable to have fun and happiness. If I'm correct, you feel so alone, so sad because you never had friends in real life. I'm not that good in giving advice in English, but I feel like it's stamped, carved on your mind that you're never going to have friends in real life, you're never going to have fun and happiness like almost everybody else does. People taking friends for granted is absolute bullcrap I'm happy to burn alive. Real friends remain loyal to any type of friend, whether the friend is an extremely impatient or really nice person. You have the ability to make friends, but you don't feel like you can be friends. No, as long as you care for them, they are your friends. Your life isn't empty, think about the times you're praised, or liked, even loved. You're a respected person around here, and don't be afraid to tell us or socialize with us. Quoted from my friend, sometimes, it's you who are going to blend in, not others. I don't know if this helped you, it's the best I could give...