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Holy crap that's sad. Holy crap. You deserve better than that. I'm speechless otherwise.

 

I may not be the most approachable person but I just wanted to put it out there, I'm here for you if you ever just want to talk to someone, or rant, or anything.
I don't think you should let things get to you. There's always going to be people who don't respect you, and it's going to hurt. I know it's hard to go through this now because I know that you deserve more respect because of what you do, but you shouldn't let it get to you. You're a good person and if someone is telling you otherwise or making you feel that way, you shouldn't give them the slightest attention. I know what it's like to have homophobic/transphobic parents. Mine are very religious and don't really know how to deal with things they don't like besides one way, which really hurts me. I think you're very brave to come out and dress, act, even identify the way you do, it really is brave, and keep doing it. Don't let people tell you what to do and not what to do.

It can get really annoying when people do it though, and I understand that. You just have to tune it out. Whoever is doing that doesn't even deserve you noticing. You deserve better than to hear any of that bullshit.

I know that I said I'd reply to this thread but I actually never gave it thought. Something that motivates me is spending time to myself. I sometimes like to let out all my emotions in different ways, singing/screaming in a pillow, writing in a journal, even just sitting there and thinking. I just sit there alone in quite and think about everything until I have like a breaking point, where I know I can't be just sitting there and doing nothing because there's stuff that is 439057439057x more important to do. Like doing something that could help someone else, or doing something that makes me happy- like talking to my friends. Or even doing something for my future, like the smallest time devoted to studying something for me right now could be the decision of what college I go to.

There's so many more important things for you to do besides worrying about other people's opinions or what they say to you, when you can be out there doing something that makes a difference- like you are. I know I've told you this before but you should always listen to music as a first resort when you're feeling down. I like to just blast it, or listen with some headphones that really catch the bass.

I'm not sure what else to say, if I think of something I'll respond again. (-:
Love ya, Tyler.

 

thank you thank You thank you, ly 2

small update, (idk if anyone cares)
i've always had heart and lung problems, today i've been really light headed, its hard to breathe and walk, im shaky, my heart feels like it's irregularly pumping, a high fever, and i constantly feel like i'm going to pass out. i had an anxiety attack in geometry i asked to go to the hospital but no one has taken me. im sorry if this isn't the place to talk about it and im sorry that im talking about any of this at all. sorry if you don't really care but i feel like i've got no where else to go. i feel really uncomfortable being so open about this because i'm not really an open person.

 

Sounds like low blood sugar. I would get something to eat and yeah go to the doctor.....

I need motivation to get out of bed......

 

I've eaten good today so I don't think that is the issue.
For getting out of bed, I'd recommend before you go to sleep think about something you're doing the next day/think about something you're doing in the near future and think about it while you sleep and when you get up. Like this summer I am going to a SPN convention and I think about it everyday and it gets me out of bed. For some reason I love having something to look forward to.

 

Try taking a nap. Might relax yourself a little more. Also, try drinking any type of warm liquids to just help stabilize your body because typically you feel really cold when you have a fever. For your fever, if you don't have any medicine, and if it's actually getting worse and worse, try getting a wet towel and wrapping it around your head and it should somewhat help. Don't drink coffee because it might make it worse- caffeine doesn't help when you're sick. Try drinking something like hot milk or tea. Just stay warm, wear some thick clothing to trap the heat your body is giving off and cover your neck and forehead/ears area. (hoodies work great for that)

 

ok i'm back from the hospital. i went last night about 8 and am finally back. i didn't get much sleep because of my insomnia.
it got really bad, the problem was my heart and lungs got inflamed and there was liqud in my lungs. and i was having a bigger anxiety attack than i normally have. i'm stable right now, i have another medication that i've to take but i think that i will be okay. i finally get to go to a therapist soon, my grandma is going to schedule it because my mom refuses to do anything for me. i have a high fever and have been drink cool liquds and trying to stay rested. my heart and lungs have always been this way, it was just worse this time. they ran a lot of tests which im used to but it made my anxiety worse. everything is going to be okay, i hope.

 

so i was given new anti anxiety/anti depressant medicine and i finally get to see my first therapist next Thursday. im glad i'm finally getting to talk to someone. for a while now i have been having more than 4 panic attacks a day. i'm used to having panic attacks, etc but their more frequent now. today i had to go out to the hospital again for some tests and that went well. my hands and feet are shaky so i can't really do a lot of my daily activities. i'm really stressed/down right now because of family, school, etc but i'm learning to cope.