Ehm well imma just get right into this..many of you know me on C1 as the guy who is, always swearing, racist and getting banned and so on. while yes this is true, there is also another side of me, that not many people know. ( im not looking for attention, yall just deserve to know this) Ever since i was around..11 or 12 ive suffered with Depression. until about..9 months ago. i was doing pretty good, then i came out as Gay (i identify as Bisexual now btw). and people looked at me alot differently. So, i kinda..took a turn for the worse i guess? i had problems with self harm, and suicidal thoughs. i managed to be 3 months clean (june 10th- september 9th) so..i ended that tonight. The really only real reason i act like a dick on the server is kinda to distract from stuff in my personal life, so..yea..i hope this doesnt change the way you look me <3 you all
I don't condone your actions, however, I am willing to sympathize with you. We are all just human beings whom eventually, in some form or another, face depression. That's why I'm chronically addicted to video games. If you want mental support, I'm happy to engage in conversation and provide advice. For free. Why? Because life is priceless; you shouldn't have to pay in order to not to want to commit suicide.
Quite a story Some historians think people did suicide to honor Hitler in Germany kinghoffys real name is Alex Bofmann
Please get professional help. I don't think it's right what you're doing, it's actually quite serious. Talk to someone for real. You're going to loose your mind if you don't. I know this from experience.
