Thank you. Thank you all!

After these past events and what has happened in my life, I feel like a completely different person than I was just a few months ago. It has just occurred to me all the dangers and risks I have faced and the problems that I thought were big turned out to not exist at all.

I stepped on a lot of thorns, tripped on a lot of roots, but here I am, and I would just like to make this thread to say thank you to everyone who has helped me out here.

First of all, I would like to say a massive "thank you" to this community, since it provided me with the basic building blocks to a new future for myself.

@MorcovTheHusky holy hell. I mean even if our Skype conversations are just rants, you're basically the example I followed. If it weren't for you, I probably would have still been a doormat caring too much about what people think of me. Honestly, you were the example of simply not being afraid to be yourself and not caring who liked or disliked you. You basically showed me how to find balance between awareness and ignorance, and that is something I may never be able to repay you for.

@Kryokin I'm not sure how I would be here without you. I mean you seemed to be my online father that always kept dragging me back when I decided to leave. I mean some things that I used to regret make me laugh today. Honestly, I probably would have left the community if you didn't stick with me and built me back up every time I fell down. Thanks a lot Kono. I owe you basically everything this community has given me.

@Joseph10003 you may not realize it, but you helped the community, and especially me. Staff member or no, you will always have my respect. I believe that I was almost on the verge of descending down the dark path of an online troll. I felt as if I would become an online troll... Something that I despise today ironically. You basically saved me from becoming a troll, and today I am quite the exact opposite! Whether it was your intention or not, I owe you a lot. I don't know how to thank you enough, but you've helped me way more than you can imagine.

@Venom_Snake you're probably one of my best friends here. You were basically my inspiration. You proved to me that likes or reputation don't matter. As long as you have loyalty toward whatever you're a part of, and your intentions are to help the community and not boost your reputation, there's nothing to worry about. As you always say, I should probably end this here before I continue rambling about something you probably already know my words for :) in conclusion, thanks for inspiring me to be myself and contribute to this community in the way I see fit.

@Rei I don't know if you want me to call you by your old name, but Rei, you basically seemed to be my brother. There are so many things about us that are alike, and to be honest, it always brought me to remain calm in certain situations I was suffering through, as you have suffered once where I am now. It offers me lots of comfort to know that you went through what I am as of now, and you were able to move on from it. While I can't say I've moved on from my situation yet, I will eventually. Thank you for understanding my situation and helping me through these hard times!

@TheRealSmg & @Unit50079 while we rarely talk, I see that there is a lot about you that I may have misunderstood. I imagined you both as the average popular forum member to speak for the community or only post to boost your reputation, but I was clearly wrong. Like @Venom_Snake above, I believe you both have this community's best interest at heart, and regardless of your staff rank or not, I'm sure you wouldn't stop trying to help this community. Don't change at all, because what you're doing is amazing.

@MappyTurtle I only liked you because you're a turtle. Mappy, you're honestly someone I looked to for when I felt I wasn't satisfied with my actions. Just like you, I began on the wrong foot. Constantly spreading drama, destroying my reputation, and simply just showing ignorance of what others thought of me. I felt as if my chances at becoming a staff member were all but shattered, just like you did. And here you are, one of my favorite staff members! You were basically one to suffer the same history as I did. You were an example of a changed person, and you showed me that anyone can change, no matter how bad or dramatic their post history could possibly be. You also showed me that when someone changes, you shouldn't judge them by their actions previously. You simply don't care if someone is going to judge you for your immaturity that happened nearly three years ago. It is really something I was lacking, and for this, I would like to say a massive thank you! ;)

@YFIOTR while we haven't talked, it was always cool to see an old legend from OITC still active. You seem to be moving on with your life, and I'd like to wish you good luck! You've got a lot of good things coming your way, and you probably have no reason to change at all! When plan A fails, there's 25 more letters in the alphabet, so there's no reason to quit!

@MrBubblyNaruto smh Bubs. You know, it has been quite a long journey, and to be honest, I don't mind anything that really happened! Despite all that has happened, it's still really cool to see that you're able to be exactly the same person as you were when we started out! I don't have any grudges on anyone, and most likely, I don't have any negative feelings toward you at all!

@Jessiee I will be honest, I was actually afraid to tag you or question you about anything, but I was always afraid of your judgement on me. I felt as if you had some grudge on me or were going to judge me for every wrong thing I did, but I see now that I was wrong. You may say your personality isn't anything beautiful in your information page, but honestly, you're far different from what I thought you were. While I've almost never talked to you, I'm glad to have finally found out who you really are!

@Netherr you've basically made me laugh quite the most on these forums. You can act serious at times, but to be honest, your personality in game has made me laugh quite a few times. You're basically a staff member that showed me you're not a robot behind your computer screen. You showed me that staff are human beings and are able to express their emotions regardless of their rank. You never really had that staff member mentality of speaking in perfect grammar, or pretending to be someone you weren't. It's amazing to finally see a staff member who decides to be themselves rather than changing who they are because of their rank! Your words in your TBH thread really spoke out to me, and I was able to forgive myself for my toxic past. Thank you, Nether.

@BashfulBaker I don't know much about you since I've never really talked to you, but it seems like you're a really nice person. I can remember when you like spammed me. I nearly panicked. It was really funny for me at the time. Hopefully I can get to know you more and maybe build a better understanding of you! :)

@CapsaLock I don't really have much to say other than you're an amazing person. You're not anyone who pretends to be different behind their staff rank, and you honestly are the example I wish to follow if I'm ever able to join the staff team. You care more about forming a connection with the players rather than scolding or belittling them. You care less about using your commands to warn/ban players and more about turning a bad player into a good player. In other words, rather than take a life of an enemy, you'd rather make the enemy your friend. A player is more likely to respect and trust a friendly and positive staff member rather than an unforgiving and demanding staff member. I am so glad you've seen this, and hopefully I can reach your level!

And last but not least, I would like to thank the cyber bullies and trolls I fell victim too. Their intentions were to hurt me, but they did not succeed. These cyber bullies and trolls that had insulted me and destroyed my identity was something that was supposed to happen. It showed me what cyber bullying and trolling does to someone. It showed me just how bad cyber bullying is to this day. It inspired me to start my campaign against cyber bullying, and it motivated me to help the victims of cyber bullying, and set them off to a better future.

I could spend countless hours typing more, but honestly it may get a bit old to read the exact same thing over and over!

If it's at all possible, I would greatly appreciate it if you could respond to my survey. It will give me a better understanding of how I impact this community, what my flaws are, what you honestly feel about me, and how I can improve if I am weak in certain areas!

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1mqwzGwNDZtnMiVx0G31VDhNGSKKKMES7TWzE4y4mioE/viewform

Thank you so much for reading, and have a great day/night!

-Sirius

 

Aw, shucks. Don't do that on me dude xD
You can call me any way you want, I'm okay with that. I appreciate the things you made for the community, like about the threads you made about cyberbullying, depression and etc. And I would hope you would move on that situation of yours, you can still talk about it to me if you still need help or advice.
So, stay strong. :P

 

Great thread man. Not just saying this 'cause you tagged me; this is a great thing to do. I hope you can continue to spread your helpful words :)