Saying things, just to get them off my mind.

Yeah, I would like to say some things about my life just to get them off my shoulder for once. This is me expressing who I am, though not so much me actually revealing my identity to the entire web since that would be kind of dumb actually.

I was thinking about IRL stuff while playing factions, and I don't think you guys really would know who I am unless you were to come across me IRL. Besides, I don't say peoples real names on here, though I have said my real name once (In fact, it's in my username). Though I have a pretty normal life, I have some flaws which prevent me from being a normal person. I am quite awkward, if you haven't noticed. I even say some of the most random things which do either weird some people out or make them laugh which is completely different from being awkward (That's called being funny of course). I really don't have very good social skills, and I can't think of things to ask people when I talk to them, especially girls when I am around them. Yes, I love hanging around girls to be rather honest, though the only questions I can think of asking them which would not be considered awkward are "What is your favorite color?" or "What do you want to do after you finish High Schoo?", etc. If I want to ask them something else, but then can't think of anything I remain quiet until I finally come up with something to ask them. They ask me questions as well, which I also do a lot of talking about myself. The one thing I have learned about girls is that they tend to be more social then guys. Girls are more emotional and guys are more physical. Girls like to talk to guys and guys just want to be around girls. Though, a lot of people may disagree with me there, that is what I tend to see a lot in guys and girls, and that is what somebody told me once. I want to talk to girls, just to be around them but I tend to get nervous a lot, especially around the ones that I have a crush on. You know, it's kind of awkward talking to them one on one however easier to talk to them in a group.

You know, like I said I don't have the best social skills and to be rather frank, I was sort of born like that. I mean, I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome earlier in my life and I still kind of feel nervous to say it, though this is my second time mentioning it. I personally don't know why a lot of people flat out think that the people with the disorder are even stupid. Why does it matter to them anyway? They don't have it, and they don't even understand how it feels to be called stupid. I used to be called stupid by this girl back in the 7th grade, which I hated but also kind of deserved since I acted kind of annoying back then. Now I like to think I don't have it anymore, which I kind of don't want to have it really, but at the same time, I prefer to be intelligent then having high emotional skills. Some may think I get helped a lot by other people, but I actually don't. I hate attention like that, I don't need it and I can handle myself wherefore, I don't get it. The only exception to this is an IEP in school, though I have had that since I was about 3 years old and to be honest, it really helps me in school which is why I like to keep it. However intelligent I am which I don't know that for sure, I am not stupid.

You know, this summer is half way over and I didn't have a lot going this summer, I did do quite a bit. A few weeks back I went on a pioneer trek which was basically where we had to dress like a bunch of pioneers and pull handcarts, just like what they did back in the day when they were traveling to the beautiful state of Utah. I know for a fact that a lot of them died and a lot of people had to bury their family members which is by far extremely painful. I've never gone through it, so I don't really know what it feels like but I figure it was hard. We had to share a lot of the trials the pioneers went through such as pulling handcarts which was extremely exhausting, camping out with tarps which wasn't really a trial for us but I would just hate doing that everyday for months. We also had a women's pull which was basically where all of the girls had to pull the handcarts with no help from the men whatsoever unless they failed in some way. Though the women did fine, I still felt bad and I saw a lot of the other men crying, which I don't blame them because we had to watch them struggle all the way up the hill with all our belongings and yes. Nevertheless, I really enjoyed the trek and thought that it was a very great experience. It really did help me appreciate what I have because now we have cars, planes, etc. I mean come on, you could drive that far in about 6 hours now, but it took them weeks to even go 300 miles and that is why I should be grateful and I also think everyone else should also be grateful for what they have now. To be honest, the pioneers went through a much worse experience and far worse trials then we did, which is another thing to be grateful for. I also am going on a scout camp this week which I am really excited for.

Well, that is pretty much all I really have to talk about now as it is late now and I am pretty sure I should get to bed. Thank you all for reading, I just wanted to get that off my skin since I had done a bunch of thinking about it. :)