I need advice

Ok, just to let you guys know, this is one of the hardest things I ever had to do.

To start, based on my forum posts and my behavior on the server(Recently, I have matured from my wrong doings in the past). Many of yall see me as the the happy fun person. That is not true.

First off, I am a very independant person in real life. Most of this is because of my voice that I hate so much. Now I talk alot on the forums. Mainly because in a minecraft chat you guys don't hear my voice.

Why do I hate my voice so much? One I sound like a f*cking girl. I hate that so f*cking much about myself. Plus, and here is a shocker. I have this speech problem. Trust I promise you guys, if I was to read this thread to you guys in real life, you will laugh, I promise. Even my closest friends, not in real life because I have none, but the ones I made while playing the server.

Ohh, btw, that speech problem I mentioned eariler. We all know how that results at school.

To add to the fire. I lie to my family. I tell them I have a bunch of friends and school is fun and exciting and sh*t like that.

Also, I believe my self to nkt care, but whenever I am alone, and is sure no one is around. I go insane. I break down, I tell myself I am even going to live next week or would I have ended it by then.

You may think I am spoiled. However when you stay silent for 7 Hours, and still get harrassed and papers thrown at you calling you a f*ggot. Plus continuing in a web of lies to the office workers and home, it gets to you.

It just life to me would be better if it was like minecraft. You can hide as a fake fantasy character, no one hears your voice, no one can judge you on how you look, etc. That is just my dumb and stupid opinion though.

Anyways, I know I will be regetting this tomorrow when people ask me to go on skype by voice phone call, I will regret this thread.

Reply if you want.

Thanks and I am sorry for wasting your time for reading. I just wanted to let people know who are going through the same exact thing, you are not alone as I am going through the same exact sh*t right now.

- ElijahR2002

 

Dude, you're 13. Your voice will change and go deeper over the years so please stop exaggerating saying things like you would have ended your life etc etc. It really upsets me to see that you're putting yourself down and to me it looks like you're bullying yourself, trust me things will get better soon and I'm really sorry to hear about your problem in school. Personally I think you should tell your parents about exactly what you've wrote here and maybe they'll help you, after all you are their son.

 

I think of suicide alot. Not that you are trying too.

I have these feelings all the time. I remember writing this on another forums long ago. I would show the forums. https://mlpforums.com/topic/131386-restricting-to-play-the-computer-and-other-life-stuff/

I feel like this all the time back then. No one liked me in school. I got more reputation. But that only helped a little. I know how you feel and all. Just be kind and don't do any wrong doings such as curse back or react to their words and actions. They are doing bad things to you. Just forgive them. Talk to someone. Talk to a friend. Just have someone beside you at all times. Don't lie. Lying only makes things worse. Please just follow the advice. It will help you lots. I feel you. I feel like I am connected to you. If you need any help, just PM me or on here if you like. Share whats going on so that I can try my best to fix it.

HCchicken out.

 

Sorry man you feel this way.
Kids can be cruel, I know that, I have been trough it.
My advice? If you don't respect yourself no one will.
My teacher trough primary school was telling me I have a "squeaky" voice. It hurt.
Other kids made fun of my last username. I didn't like what they were doing, but I got used to it, and eventually, they stopped.

Your voice will change. No reason to hate yourself for that. No one is perfect. Accept how you look/sound like and start from there.
Also, you don't need bunch of friends. Quality > Quantity. Start building small and eventually you'll have more friends to do stuff with.
Puberty is hard. I have been trough it, I have been bullied, yelled at, picked by other kids, you name it. It is hard, but it makes a person out
of you. It creates a character. Hang in there, I know you can.

 

The only real way out of it is to stop caring so much about what people think of you, and to start ignoring those trying to put you down. Trust me. It may seem hard, but it really isn't.

 

Sorry that you're feeling this way.But the only way out is just not caring a dropping it. Physical attributes don't matter if you have a good personality. You don't need 1,000 friends you need 1 friend that will stand up for you against 1,000 others, Quality defeats quantity. You're gonna grow you're 13 your voice will get deeper you will change. Anyways those kids screwing with you probably have a screwed up personal life at home such as their parents have issues and whatnot and its going to them they are only doing to gain self esteem, by you not retaliating towards them you are the bigger man by not giving what they want a reaction. All this harassing just forget don't listen to it block it out.