hopefully coming back in a few days

Where to start... ah yes. These past few days have been a very bumpy road to be honest. The daily stress I have to handle every day has never been any higher before in my life. And my depression came back... came back with power... worse than ever. And the worst thing out of all this chaos is that I started to have suicidal thoughts, I'm struggling so hard to not be the old depressed person I was. I will not describe that old person as I might loose respect from other people. I've also started to loose my appetite and I stopped sleeping at night (explains why I keep saying I feel dizzy). I am starting to loose interest in alot of things (that excludes The Beatles of course, The Beatles are the only people/thing that can keep me happy). I also started to loose communication with family members as some of them don't care much about me. Really the only family members that care are my parents, but I really do not want to make them sound bad. One other thing that has been happening with me is that I don't sound correct. What I mean is that I make no sense at all. And one last thing that I am slowly starting to loose my memory. Hence the reason why there is not much detail here. Hopefully when I comeback (hopefully as soon as I get my shit back together) I will be happier. I don't want to cause drama or people telling me what to do, so I'm locking the thread.