I'm very sorry about those people posting on the application thread. They were pretending to be a part of the faction.
I just read your "Bye." post. It made me cry a little. Don't ever leave this world. There are people out there who love you and accept you for who you are. Im going through similar stuff and I'm trying to get through it. Just hang in there no matter what happens. <3 :)
Have you ever ran so far or so fast that you felt alright as you were running, but when you stopped and sat down you couldn't really see straight or stand steady? That happened to me when I ran a mile in 7:56 xD