~ Message to my sad and happy self ~

This is inspired by @LouiseXminerX

A message to my sad and happy self

You are so happy a lot of the time, it's difficult to see how you could be sad,
You smile away talking to people and making a fool out of yourself,
You laugh at jokes that people type in chat,
You use all the colors of the rainbow in your buildings
You don't have a care in the world, you just enjoy the moment with your internet friends.
You listen to your music and sing along not caring who hears,
You smile to yourself when you hear that one lyric that you heard when you met your friends,
You hit your keyboard when you fail at the parkour, but you laugh when your friend makes a joke about it,
Your lungs hurt from laughing to hard at the youtube videos your friend links you,
You sing the words of old show theme songs whilst building a house and messing around with heads
You help your sad friends, saying it will all be alright because you will help them with whatever.
You take memes too far and end up basically making a new meme,
You see people who used to be your friends, and even if they don't remember you you're happy because they're happy.
You smile as you build an rp with your friends,
You have to try and hold in the laugh at 3 am when your friend builds a house.
You smile and nearly cry when your friend builds a house full of your memories together from 1 year ago,
You are so happy, like you were all the time.

Until it came.

You cried when everyone ignored you,
You cried when people preferred someone else to you.
You built buildings with black and grey to represent your emotions,
You feeling like you've been stabbed in the back,
You think how life used to rain a bit and now it's an everlasting storm,
You think how it could have been you, messing around till early hours of the morning,
You have tears in your eyes as you listen to sad songs whilst playing truth or dare.
You think how no one cares at all,
You think how you blocked out everyone else but one person and in the end that person blocks you out,
You think what it would be like to have someone who cares
You think what it would be like to talk to people,
You go quiet when people ask you questions because you're scared
You are scared that if they get close they will leave you like everyone else,
You miss the old happy you

But once in a while it kicks in,
The happiness.

You smile thinking how you overcame your sadness again,
You sing songs again,
You smile again.
You think how much you have changed since the last time you talked to people,
You know that somebody will care,
You laugh as you look around the rp you built and think of all the jokes you shared,
You smile as old friends message you saying hey,
You smile like an idiot when somebody says to someone else 'No i'm with her at the moment.'
You feel like people want to be with you,
You laugh as you look at the failed meme pixel art you built months ago,
You smile as you buy a higher rank because you come on the server again,
You smile as you tell people the truth about yourself
You smile even more when they accept you for you.
You are happy you don't have to hide anymore,

Because even though you feel so sad and depressed,
and wonder what it would be like to have a metal blade across your wrist,
you know that inside that sadness,
there will always be a switch that you can press,
to turn on happiness,
and sometimes it's not you pressing that switch,
sometimes it's someone else.

You smile as you finish off the post, thinking about everything you wrote,
You were sad before you wrote this post,
You thought about everything and how you can be happy.
You are now happy.

~ A now happy person

If you ever feel sad,
remember the happy switch is there someone,
and if you can't turn it on yourself,
find someone else who will help or do it for you,
try and stay happy <3

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Even though sometimes I am sad

 

That's inspiring. I have a lot of respect for you, since you were able to post about all this.
Hopefully you'll be able to be happy.
welcome to the forums by the way lol

 

I'm really glad how I'm inspiring others to also stay strong and also use their voice. I wish I could also help others who are too afraid to show their strength.
Stay strong friend. I'm also in the same boat as you. I still have little strength, but that's all I need.

 

Woah.