My Story

Okay before I start.. I'd like to say that this is just to let people know more about me, and not meant for "attention". I also know that there are quite a few threads from other people about their Life Story type of thing, but I feel like I need to get this off my chest.

Okay, so I'm gonna start from the beginning, when I was born. Well, not literally.. I'm not going to go step by step from Day 1 till present time. Okay, well, my Father was a drunk, he was always drinking and always doing something else. His drinking got him carried away from the real world, and started doing things no one would want to happen. I was 3 years old, and my sister was 8. We started to get abused, 2 young children, being thrown up against walls, and hit. My Mom tried to always protect us, and she was always beaten as well. We always had glass objects thrown at us, or trying to cut us with the pieces of glass.

After a while, my mom left him, brought us to a new house, and it was way better. We went to court, to find out about custody of my Sister and I, my Mom won the law suit, with 1 condition aside from it. I had to visit my Father every other weekend. My Father "went" to rehab and "cleaned" up.. but he never did. Every other weekend, my Sister and I would come home with bruises and cuts on our bodies, but there were some weekends when I came home without a mark on my body, which was good. Years went by, being abused, thrown at walls, hit with pots and pans, made to swallow hot sauce until my throat began to get super sore and I couldn't talk. I was made to drink things that would normally kill someone, but I was lucky.

My Father then found a Girlfriend, they were a perfect match. They had a child together, and it was good for about a year, then the abusing started again. But his girlfriends children would never get hit, it was only my Sister and I that would. At this point, it wasn't just my Father abusing us, it was his Girlfriend too. I was scared to leave my room to go to the bathroom without getting hit or yelled at, for no reason. This continued for 4 years.

I'm about 10 years old now, and I'm still visiting my Fathers house, he actually started to become a bit of a Father, and not as much of a dick. That lasted 3 months. I then took a crowbar to the back of my leg.. shattering it. I didn't have to go see him for 6 weeks until I was fully recovered. After that, I had to go back. He tried to throw me down the stairs, when I decided to actually do something about my safety. I sacked him, and pulled him down the stairs with me, he got most of the injury, not me. When I was in the hospital after getting a concussion, I got my mom to call the Police and told her we had to fight for 100% custody of my Sister and I.. We won, I no longer had to go to his house. But the abuse didn't end there.

I became depressed after all the abuse, and after going to school, getting verbally and physically abused by other students, I decided I would try to end my life. My first attempt was jumping off a bridge.. Someone saw me, and ran over to me and grabbed me before jumping. We all know what happens after that.. "Help". I didn't want help.

Okay, I'm not going to go to much in detail anymore.. I'm going to cut to the chase.

I attempted suicide about 4 times. Failing each time. Twice, I had to be revived and put onto a breathing machine. I finally went to go find "Help" and it didn't actually help me.. at all. I felt the same, after all the years of depression I still couldn't fight it.

Grade 8 rolled around, I got my first girlfriend, but it felt weird.. It didn't feel.. Normal. That's when I realized my sexuality. I've only told one person this before because I felt uncomfortable about it. This person is @Joseph10003 But now I'm telling this entire community, because I feel more comfortable about it. I've realized that I was Bi Sexual. It wasn't very easy to determine since the feelings felt weird. I never thought about dating a guy before, so I just stuck to girls.

I have never said this in real life, since society today will completely destroy someone mentally and physically. I've always been scared to express my life to someone, and I've only told a few people. Since I've been very close and comfortable with them.

But anyway, this is my life.. It's detailed, I know.. I don't expect people to read the entire thing.. this is just something I thought I would share with the community.

Also, I'm not here for attention, and also I really don't want hate. Support is optional.

Thanks for reading.

 

Guess why I made this thread http://www.itsjerryandharry.com/threads/have-that-in-mind.80394/

 

dang dude...
~Respect.

 

My respect for you is 110%, your an amazing person.

 

You've been through a lot & I can relate to that to some extent. I was abused by my father and step mother for 3 years straight, verbally, physically and mentally abused. I didn't feel as if there was any way out, I attempted to end it all. After around close to 3 years of this happening and being enclosed from the outside (Not being able to see friends or other family members) my Mother took it to court and she won. I'm now living with my Mother and I'm currently in my final year of school taking my exams in around 8weeks. I still have ups & downs but I'm much better than I was. Also, I saw that you said you realized you were Bisexual, don't worry about what people say, coming out also helps you see who your true friends are. When I came out I got a lot of hate and was bullied from rumours to being physically attacked. But there were friends who stuck by me all the way, just be you and fuck anyone who tells you different. Much respect for you Zack, be brave and be strong.

 

Thanks so much guys.. I appreciate it. c:

 

I'm sorry about everything you have gone through. I know what you're going through.
I think it's amazing that you are comfortable enough with your sexuality to tell everyone.
I'm always here for you if you need to talk

 

Zack, I am really happy for you to share this with the community. I was really happy when you told me this a couple weeks back (not the sexuality though) and I was really happy to tell you about my story, and I was happy to try and help. I first just want to start off by saying that I am really appreciating that you told me this (+the fact you only told a couple people) because in my book that means you trust me, and I trust you. And that means alot to me. You are such a good friend to me, and almost a brother. I can trust you with about everything.

I am really happy you took like 5 hours to hear my story, and I may or may not share it with the community. However, about your sexual preferences, I am so happy to hear about you coming out, I had no clue! I made a thread awhile back, I made a thread about how I am bisexual aswell, though it may not seem like it. It took alot for me to come out and im sure as hell it did for you also.

Your bisexuality won't change anything nor' shouldn't for anyone else.

Stay strong, and if you ever need to talk about it, I am always here.

 

It took me a bit to wrap my head around certain things but I'm willing to get used to the sexuality part.
Im here for you

 

Thank you baby <3

And thank you Chris, Ben, Kathrine and Jordan c:

 

Only people who are strong mentally can go through something like that.
I myself, I don't even think I would make it to age 6 if what happened is not an exaggeration (Not thinking it is).
You man...you are amazing. It's just awesome to think that after all that occurring, you still go out of your way to be nice/to help people.
You deserve everything you got right now. Being staff. Having tons of friends. There are people in this world who are just given that, but you have a different story, an inspiring one.
And again, only someone who is strong can come out about their sexuality. You man..you're like a role model to people. You should be one.
If you ever feel depressed again, remember, It's not your fault. It is a disease that can eat people alive.

Again, I have said this multiple times already, but you are strong.
I applaud that you always had the strength to keep going.
Amazing.

 

Zack, I am beyond proud of you for making this thread.

It shouldn't matter what your sexuality is because at the end of the day, you are still the same person.
You have been a really supportive person in my life. You are funny, nice and caring and you don't deserve what you had to go through. Stay strong. I respect you a lot for being brave enough to post this.

 

Dude.. I read this four times, and I have to say. I'm sorry this happened to you. I'm sorry what you had to go thorough, and honestly depression isn't a good thing and not something to laugh at. It hurts me inside when parents abuse their children. Suicide is never a option, and to think that you kept going after what happened to you. Truly amazing dude. If you ever need to talk I'm here for you. Just ask. I have all respect for you.

 

wow.. im so sorry about your past. i will always respect you and be here for you.

 

You kinda deserve the worlds biggest hug.
No one should deal with what you just said and from my own personal incidents throughout my life, I can sadly say that so many people have to go through this and continuously deal with this and not everyone is as lucky as you that they got pulled away from the bridge.
No one should have to even rethink their opinions they had on you before you made this thread. You are Zack. Thank you for being apart of the community and thank you for coming out to us.

 

I thought of you as a great person since I first met you and I'll always support you <3
And please down try to leave us because we all love you especially me

 

Okay Zack I just want you to know we are all here for you k, if someone's abusing you or saying jack shit we got you. Your childhood wasn't the best but put that aside. I know it's hard but it's the only thing that can help. Actually that's not the only thing.. I can help Zacck we r good friends tell me if u need to talk bout stuff. I gotchu <3

 

We got backs

 

Omg.
I'm so sorry about all you've gone through >. <
But it helped make you the person you are today.
Be strong, be happy, and enjoy your life. Fck the past.
Congrats on coming out, btw =)

 

Dude, I respect you so much. Your beginning of your story was basically like mine, when I was 3 or 4 I was put in the adoption center because of both of my parents child abusing me. I hope things get so much better for you dude, I wish you so much luck. I don't know you very well, but this whole community seems to love and respect you. Keep strong dude.