Something you didn't know.

I've been trying to make this thread for a long time. I'm probably going to get trolled to oblivion for saying this, but I'm gonna do it anyways because I'm stupid. :D

So, even though it does have spikes...my overall self-esteem is pretty abysmal.
Often I see myself as being stupid and worthless, which can be triggered by me being unable to do something or do it well. I compare myself to others, and if I'm the worst at what ever activity we're doing/don't win competitions, I feel stupid.
I'm always REALLY worried about what others think of me. I think that if I do something really weird/stupid in front of the wrong people, I'll be made fun of behind my back or to my face and before I know it everyone will be against me.
I get kind of worried when I feel like I've annoyed somebody. "Oh no now they're mad at me and don't like me anymore." I worry that not a whole lot of people care about me sometimes.

I've been told countless times that I'm not stupid and that a lot of people do care about me, but I still feel the way I do at the end of the day no matter what. Some of the compliments I get sound fake in my ears even when they may really be sincere.

I know you guys aren't psychologists, but I needed to get this out.

Prepare the gifs about how little you care I guess.

 

hugs <3

continue messaging me on steam about this pls

 

I can relate. I'm very similar to you in that sense.
I feel for you ;-;

 

oH my god.... I just read that and realized i feel the exact same way. I never knew i even felt this way until i read this..

Enough about me... really though, if you ever need anyone to talk to you can pm me on here (im not on that often but I try to come on every so often) or msg me on skype (annienguyen1222). Hope you're feeling okay <3

 

We haven't always been on the best of terms, but I really do hope things get better for you.
I'm always here if you need to talk ^~^

 

You need to prove it,
sometimes people like you need to prove themselves that they're not like that. Like me, I used to see myself as a fat guy. Which pushed me to the limit that I have to exercise, to prove myself that I'm not fat. You should do that too, you must improve yourself as a human being. Because if you'll don't, you can actually be stupid and worthless. Those words won't hold you together forever, and you know that. So, do-

*Ugh* (I'm not going to say that) Words isn't always there to fix your problems, you have to improve yourself to cut off the root of the source of low-self esteem. When you actually improved yourself, you'll feel better for yourself. You'll know that you're not stupid or worthless because you actually proved it, prove yourself that you can do it.

 

I care about you. You have always appeared to me as one of the kindest and most cheerful people on the forums - I thank you for that. Everyone knows that the world desperately needs people like that, or else all hell would break loose.

Optimists keep the world going. They get seemingly impossible tasks done; tasks no "sane" person would bother daring to do. The optimist is a keystone in our fragile civilization, and without their selflessness, all of the world we live in would quickly collapse.

Never stop being the kind-hearted, uplifting person I know you to be, Star, because you are a star in this community. Shine on.

 

I used to deal with insecurities a lot, so I know how you felt.
It wasn't until last year that I had someone who helped me love myself, not in a friend way or a supportive way, this guy helped me feel better about myself by reverse psychology. He was so full of himself, that it helped me be like him (not in a cocky way) that he lived happily being happy with himself and that was an example I could follow.
I am no longer in contact with this person because after they left me I felt worse than before but I realized that the most important part is you shouldn't depend on others opinions to determine your own thoughts on yourself. Who cares what people think about you? All that matters is what YOU think, I know it's hard but learning to love yourself on your own terms rather than having other people affect that is one of the most important things anyone will ever do.
I know I don't know you too well but I really hope you can get through this and though right now it may seem rough I've been through what you're going through and I know it will get better. People care whether you think they do or not, there will always be someone.
Stay strong.

 

Didn't intend the pic to be so big...

You shouldn't compare yourself to other people.

 

But that's just the thing.
I can't help it.

 

And that right there is the defeatist attitude that keeps you from getting out of your loop of insecurity.

You have to think differently. Change your mental processes. Rethink the patterns and paths you train of thought take, and redirect them towards a different destination - one that doesn't end in dissatisfaction with yourself.

Think about what you HAVE accomplished, what you ARE good at, why people DO like you. Trust me, look at it that way and keep that mindset, and you will improve - it's worked wonders for me and some others I know.

 

Hey, you know I'm here for you. Need to talk? Message me c: