Internet Stuff (read please)

So recently, I have been ripped and torn down from many angles. I feel like as if my life is just crumbling down. I feel like I am not wanted here. Many people think that this may be ridicules and stupid. However you never realize what it is like, until you experience it. You may ask why one is cutting and may think that the whole ideal of it is outrageous, until you're the one doing it. I may get too down on my life, but once depression drags you in you can't get out. It's like drowning. Drowning in your own thoughts. You may have been a warm and funny girl and now you are just a girl that has too wear sleeves to hide the scars. You tell people you are okay even though you are just thinking about killing yourself. Literally, every single word that you say to someone whether you know it or not, is always kept with them. As for me I reflect those words when I am crying until 2am and reading through all the mean comments I receive. Yes. This is the internet but those people behind the screens are human too. They have feelings. They feel just as much as you do. So, just imagine you behind that screen before you put it out there. It can't be taken back, even though they say it's okay, or that you have apologized over 50 times. It sticks with them. For a very long time in-fact. Maybe forever. These words really get to me. Some people may do things to relive the pain. I sure know I do. It's not fun watching people have fun and smiling, while you are faking your smiles and laughing along with something you don't find funny. Your always sad. There's no way to fix that. Words mean a-lot. I am literally to the point where I just want to die. That I was born in the wrong place and at the wrong time. Everyone. Please re-read a comment before you put it out there. Figure if that was you receiving that comment. How would that make you feel? If people did this more often, we would still have some very kind and loving people around.




Although everyone may think it is only the people on the forums getting me all depressed, you're wrong. My parents are splitting up. And literally as Kate said below, my dad used to slap me across the face. Sometimes, this still happens. Life outside of my gaming, is worse. 50x worse. So, everyone please stop saying 'this is the internet'. I have a lot more going on than forums and minecraft. So, please stop. This suicidle shit wasn't the whole purpose of this thread. It was for people to just think about what they are going to say before they put it out there.

 

Kay dont do anything crazy. People are just dumb enough to think you would listen to their hate. Ignore them. It will all get better soon :)

 

It's the internet, ppl are gonna talk shit cos they think they're cool/showing off. Don't do anything you'll regret. I done lot's of mistakes, some ppl in the world do get cyber bullied and sadly, they kill them self. You deserve to be here, just ignore the haters. You're not alone.

No one is perfect.

 

Hah, feelings. That's cute.

If you're not okay, don't tell people you are okay. If you feel like you are drowning, learn how to swim. Don't live a lie, sometimes, all you need is someone to tell you that they understand and feel your pain. You are not the only person in the world that feels rejected, scared, or anxious. You have so much to live for, my fellow forumer. So much opportunity in your life. You were given a beautiful body and a loving family and home, don't waste that. It's so fucking precious.

There aren't nearly enough people as privileged as you. Sometimes all that it takes to cure depression is to make someone else smile. Obviously if you've faked a smile for years faking it isn't your thing. Just, tell yourself the truth for a change. " I am not okay. I need help". That mind set is all it takes to help yourself. Please don't do this to yourself. You will only suffer.

Here is a national suicide hotline- call it if you can't take it anymore: 1 (800) 273-8255

 

People say things on the internet that they wouldn't say to your face. These people who insult others through the internet are cowards.

 

I honestly feel where you are coming from. People on the internet are assholes. Even people on here can be assholes. I don't know why people on here are so concerned about others. People need to worry about their own personal problems. I still don't understand why there are people who care about putting others down more than they care about trying to be nice and positive. People piss me off all the time and it gets frustrating, but I guess you just learn to accept the fact that there are going to be people like that. I'm sorry if you feel like no one is there for you and I'm sorry that there are so many ignorant people messing with you. Stay positive.

 

Remember, there are always people in the world who will support you, never lose hope. These people should not influence your life. Live life to it's fullest and reap it's rewards.

 

Are you sure that we really don't know how you feel? Ha nice one. You think that our lives is better than yours? Ha nice one. And now you hate us all because like 5 people told you smth bad? Ha that's adorable. Honey, count the amount of people that support you. Count the amount of people who care about you. Can't count? Well just take a look at your profile msgs and your inbox. Still hate us? And the best thing is that, some people have been through so much shit and they don't cut or want to suicide BUT THEY CONTINUE THEIR LIVES WITHOUT LISTENING TO BULLSHIT BECAUSE THEY ARE STRONG AND BRAVE. Yes some people on the internet are stupid but you can simply IGNORE them. In real life is more difficult. One god damn thing happend and now you're like "my life has been torn down from many angles". It isn't the end of the world or your life because you simply lied about something as trivial as that. Seriously if I were you I would move on after a while and put it in the back of my head even tho it's really hard to do that because it hurts you.

Warning: you can skip this bit if you think Im looking for attention.

So take for example me. I'm just a 14 years old woman. At the age of 5 my parents used to hit me with a belt and that continued for a few years. Now I found out that I'm pansexual and genderfluid. I came out to my mother yesterday with xenon next to me and her reaction was terrible. Both my parents think that I'm too stupid to understand how life works. I'm too young to be me and make decisions. And now look at me. I continue my life without listening to them. Why? Because I have people that care about me. So yea. Life isn't that nice, is it?

 

Totally agreed to Kate

If you want to think of us as bully look around you , you arent the only one thats sad.
I actually have more things to say but I am gonna stop here for everyones sake.

 

Okay aside from @KateVampire 's response id like to say my own

I mean we all have problems like Kate stated, but by putting someone down on there own thread about them being under the moon? Thats wrong..
Kat, almost everyone has problems in life you aren't the only one, there is no need to cut or do anything crazy like that. But i understand how you feel, i felt the same thing 2 years ago, it feels never ending it feels like your whole life is spiraling down.
Wake up, this is real life . Think of what your doing? What has humanity come too.. Cutting? You are harming yourself because some person says or does something? Now personally i think that is ridiculous no matter what someone has done.. everything is going to be ok

 

I'll keep this short.
From what I just saw, you have a boyfriend, congrats. Slothie has been there for you this entire time, throughout the whole original thread not too long ago.
You still think you have no hope? No one is there for you? Disaster and depression?
You have the one person you can speak to, to make you feel better etc. even the people that replied above may not be good friends with you, doesn't mean they can't care about you and what is happening to you.
For now, forget all that, spend time with him, as its upsetting him as much as it is to you. There's always hope, you just have to realise it.

 

Preach.

 

Ignore the haters. As cheesy as it might sound, ignore them. The internet is full of trolls.

We all have these haters. Trolls are everywhere, in every website.

You just have to stay stong. Be brave.

There is an alternative way to get rid of these feelings: Shut down your computer.

 

I kinda want to add on to this, It's more or less another way of putting what I said. Thanks Kate, by the way. Anyways.

(me talking about myself skip if u don't wanna read)
Pretty much everyone on earth has these kind of problems. First time I've said this in public but my mother was unemployed for a couple of months, we were forced to skip meals and stuff because she is highly in debt and behind on payments. Long story short, we almost lost our house. I always kept a smile on my face, of course I thought my life was horrible, I thought I'd be better off dead. But I stopped, and counted how many friends I have, how many fun times I shared with them. I stopped and thought: It's not worth it.

 

I understand that yes, people may be putting you down but that does not mean you should let them. There will always be someone who is jealous. That person is jealous because you have so much support and positivity that the person is jealous they don't,so they take it upon themselves to make you feel bad, so you're equal. Yes life is hard. It's hard for everyone, it's not worse for you or for me, or for anyone. That's because nobody is in your shoes to know what it feels like Kay. If people like to do that to you, showing that you're hurt will make them want to do it more. And in the end, you should not be hurt anyways. Who cares if someone is so ridiculous to the point to have to take it out on you. Who cares that you photoshopped a picture of your ass, who cares if you didn't. If you look at it clearly, there is a positive side and you're not giving that side enough attention. Stop looking at the bad side of things, that always makes you more vulnerable and upset. The things that make you upset will always be there to haunt you and if you have the ability to keep them away, then why not take it? It's really simple just ignore the haters.
I tried to make as much sense as possible, what I mean is just stop looking at the bad side of things and look at the good ones.

 

Thank you guys for all the support. I am feeling a touch better. Just knowing some people are here to help, just means a lot. Thank you.

 

Whoever's mean to you, disrespecting you, doing whatever shit that pisses you off. Just know, those are the people who show their statement about themselves, not the statement about you, life is too short to spend it with people who take happiness away from you. If people are trying to bring you and make you feel down, just remember it's because you're above them.

 

Just ignore them. If someone is hurting your feelings, walk away. Showing any sympathy when someone bullies you makes them feel better and it leads them to do it again.

It's as easy as that. Ignore it. Don't show weakness, if you need any help, talk to family, friends, etc.

 

If they talk crap ddos them - ndianx on ts last night being stupid in front of imnotokayy