A couple people have been asking me a few things since yesterday, like. What happend to you to get depression? what happend between you and loling? Did you leave the server? This..i guess is just to kinda clear the air since..im changing myself, to be more honest.. Im gonna start off with what happend with @Loling obviously there is 2 sides of the story..but im just gonna say what happend from my prospective. So it started off...with me and @Tomyz calling eachother names like "jew" and such.. then it kinda got out of hand..and i called him a "whore" and a "Cheating f*ck", after this Loling gave me a verbal warning and we went on our paths. A couple hours later, i was doing it again and he gave me a real warning which led to a ban on me (2 days) well forgetting he verbally warned me earlier..me and Tomy got in a huge fight with Loling. it was pretty childish of us.. This ended up my Alt being banned aswell for Ban Bypassing. Well then i took it to the forums..and @Caity got involved.. i argued with them for a long time.. called Loling some pretty bad things.. which led to a forum ban which was lifted today actually.. Thats pretty much what happend with me and Loling, and i just want to say, Im really sorry to Loling and caity for all i did to them. The next thing i want to cover... Am i leaving the server? No..im not leaving the server, yes im offline now..(Cause im banned..:P) but..idk i might take some time away from the server idk yet. We'll see what happens when i get back on... Now the last thing i want to cover.. This is gonna be pretty hard to right..cause most of you dont know this about my life.. It started in 7th grade..nothing traumatic happend..My parents just..noticed a change in my attituted..and yea..Well come to 8th grade..i started a new school. It was really hard for me.. i had zero friends..and knew no one.. come November i had made a couple friends and not really bugged anyone. Then im not sure what i did..but i guess i was an easy target for bullying.. Idk..it was pretty easy at first.. it was just stuff like "4 eyes" and "giant" (im 6ft 2) so it didnt really bother me.. but by March it was getting worse.. people started pushing me and shoving me in the hallways.. My friends all left, i had no one to turn too.. It kept getting worse and worse..In May..i tried to kill myself by swallowing a bottle of pills..but my Mom found me and i got to the hospital in time for them to flush my stomach and such.. after that it just kinda went down hill.. In september..i made the best/worst decision of my life.. most of you dont know this buy.. im Bi.. yea i know this might shock you. After i told my friends and family.. It got 100% worse...i would get beat up at school..people would constantly bombard me with insults... everyday was like a battlefield.. People found out my dream in life (to join the army) and they started telling me i cant do it.. even my parents told me i cant do it..Its gotten a little better now..ive started gaining a couple more friends.. ive been clean for 4 weeks today..i dont really know how to end this.. so im just gonna end it here. *Disclaimer* I just really..want to say sorry..to everyone on J&H..for everything. i know most of you dont believe me when i say that..but i am truly sorry.. For everything.. -Zee.
Wow. Zee I just want to say that we are always here for you and no madder who you are, you are you. Things will get better if you pull through the tough times like back then. My favourite quote is: If you want the rainbow you have to get though the rain. Remember that.
