Hello, most of you guys know me as Sel. The fun person starting fun events and plays a lot with all of you. But behind all of that. My life is dark. Nobody likes me, I'm getting bullied, nobody talks to me at school, I'm always getting pushed away from seperate events at school. And It's time to show you guys what my actual life is. You know, I'm trying to get as active as I can. Applying and stuff. But this is the worst thing behind my life. I'm never allowed to go on my computer, thats what my dad says everytime. But I'm trying to do EVERYTHING to still come on my Pc. I'm not a pc nerd or something like that. I'm doing this because I love all of you guys, and I can't live without you all. I'm living trough this to stay on the server with all the pain, I get in real life. My dad, is the worst of these. If I get on my PC to atleast play with you guys, my dad always comes with a painful discussion saying that I am not allowed to get on my PC. But what I do, I still go on my PC. This goes over and over again. It brings much more pain inside me. And today, it made me die inside. I don't feel like myself anymore. I've been crying feeling pain. I got so many pain in the outside also. Why? Because I get angry at myself, and that starts of hitting myself. I've got a bleeding nose because of this once. And I want to tell something with this to you guys. I can't take this, but I'm doing this cause you guys, this community. Made my life become better. Without this, I'm feeling dark inside. At the moment that I'm doing this, I'm crying of fear, thinking what will happen next.. I'm closing off my phone multiple times, being scared that my dad will walk in. Getting my phone reading this. Guys, I'm trying my best to be with you, with a lot of pain in real life. I can't thing anymore. But I'm getting trough all of this, to at least be here. This is some serious stuff I wanted to talk about. Believe it or not. I'm crying of fear lately. I can't sleep. But without this community. If it gets removed from me. My happiness will be removed from me. I'm feeling dead inside right now. And I don't know what to do. But I do know that there won't be any end of this.
Look, like I said millions of times in this thread. Help, won't change anything. The only person that I can trust in real life Is my mom, and you guys
You are luckier than me then! I can only trust 4-5 people on the server. I don't have many friends that care about me. Plus my IRL conditions!
Nick. I don't have friends. And, yes I can trust lots of people on the server. But I'm not lucky feeling like I got questioned 1000 times per second, thinking about what will happen in the future
I know what you're feeling and I'm certain that it isn't a great feeling either. I don't get bullied like you do, but people do occasionally make fun of me for numerous traits I have, regardless of me being super nice to them for so long and not doing anything negative to them - it's just life. There are always going to be haters, but you shouldn't let them get to you. Allowing them to get what they want is definitely not the answer here Sel. It's great that you've found a hideaway; at the same time, is running from your problems truly the answer here? Perhaps it isn't. Frankly I believe you should face your problem and fight for justice. If you keep sitting there doing nothing about it, nothing will be done. Things don't get fixed on their own, unfortunately. If you're sincerely addicted to the community but yet your parents don't allow you on here, tell them about the problems in your life. They say that the squeaky wheel gets the oil, so be that squeaky wheel and tell your parents the issues that you need fixed. I promise you won't regret it. I'm sorry if this brings you down but I felt like putting the cards on the table.
Okay, Lila. Thank you so much about this, but I've tried all of them. And they don't want me on here. I'm doing EVERYTHING. But none of them worked. Lila thank you for being really helpful. But I'm already trying these. I'm not scared from these bullies actually. But their power is getting bigger being mean. But I'm trying my best
Yea like lila said,tell your parents about it.Being depressed and saying that your life sucks wont help the situation.If you cant stand the bullies anymore just change school and everything will be fine.Also Im sure that bullies are so jealous of you because,with less words, you're an awesome person sel and you dont deserve it.Another thing you can do is ignoring the bullies but I know that is difficult.Even if you love us that much I guess you can take a break from the online word and fix real life and school.And if you need something else then we will be always here. :) "We are 7 billion people on earth.Dont let 1 of them to destroy your day" Oh and some tips.Dont blame yourself for everything and never again say that no one likes you because there are people out there who care about you,support you and love you.
Kate, I know what I have to do, but I have no choice. I can't change school, my parents never understand me. Even though I'm trying my best to tell them. And also, I'm trying my best to become friends with them, but when I'm coming close they move away from me. I'm always the lonely person sitting there, at lunch. The online world is the only place where you guys understand me.
"If you're going through hell, keep going" - Winston Churchill Just ignore it, going through this? it just proves you are a stronger person "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission" - Miss Piggy Just ignore them, you are better than them...
I see where you are coming from. I've always lived by, "Don't take anyone's shit, never let them take you alive" because you're better than them, you're faster than them, and damn you're better looking than them. The world is a gonna try to clean you up, the world is an ugly place, what are you gonna do about it? You're gonna say, I wanna stay ugly. There's something about being extremely unashamed about what you are that really pisses people off. It means you're going to get a lot of people that understand it, and love it, and a lot of people that don't understand and hate it. And, sometimes it's a beautiful place, we all share it together. I'm talking about what you do if someone picks on you, because everyone gets bullied. You don't retaliate. Tell someone about it because bullying shouldn't be tolerated. Go to a teacher, a best friend, a school therapist, someone that you can trust. And, you know what you are gonna do to get away from all of this? You're gonna, you are gonna...do what you want to do. Do what you love doing. Get away from the world, y'know put on some headphones and just ignore everything. That's what I do. You need to go to a guidance counselor at your school (if you have one). I see that you're doing your best to try and help the situation, and that's good. But, if your parents are not listening you are not furthering this. I'm sorry that all of this is happening so quickly to you, not sure were your answers to the problem remain, but you will find them. I see that you've repeated many times that you have tried but nothing has ever turned up in your favour, but you know. It will sooner or later. And if you find yourself, feeling depressed, hurt, feeling like an outcast and like the only kind of place you feel you can fit in is a place like this, that's not the case because we're all outcasts in our own way. We all do belong in this world, we all fit in this world. And Sel, and to anyone that is reading this. If you've got something to say, you never, ever, say it with violence. I hope you understand me. Because, you, nor anyone else ever deserves to be in such pain as this, or any pain for that matter. I believe in you Sel, to go out and help fix this. Good luck, with what happens after this. And, if you ever need anyone to talk to, I can be that person.
