Going through tough stuff here

Warning: If you don't care, or even want to know what i'm going through, don't read this and please avoid making negative comments, like most of you guys prefer doing. :(

Recently I have been going through tough times. Today, my friends were cutting me. Making scars all over my arm and hands. It hurt a lot, but they wouldn't let go. They walked up to me and randomly began to sink their uncut nails into my arms. It hurt a lot, and I can still see the marks. I tried to get away, and get their hands off me, but they were stronger than me. I don't know why they do this but they do anyways. They also don't really like being near me for some reason. They always ignore me, and they never pick me as their teammate when we play games, and I haven't been picked once this whole year, the last 67 games. I always had to watch. And waste my recess for the whole past year. Standing in the Hot sun, freezing in the cold air, and trying to stand still in the great wind.

My skin is turning red right now, and I really am depressed. Another thing that's happening, is me and my friends are getting ignored a lot. For example, (No names,) when we were playing on a MMO server and 2 of my friends were playing on it, 1 other friend of mine wanted to play with them. They ignored that person, and didn't reply for about 7 minutes. After that, they were already inside some sort of dungeon. They still didn't reply to that one friend. But when I tried to talk to them, calling their names several times, they replied in "WAHT?!" and finally listened. Then they apologized and said that person could join.

But this is hurting me a lot. Another time, for me this time, 1 of my friends was giving out free items to everyone. But it was only just 3 people, and not me nor my other friends. Just them. Even though the person that was giving things out, said he will give it to all of her/his friends. 3 of us never got anything. :(

One more time, on again, the same server, I had died and lost all of my items. I was very depressed, and worked my way back to getting all my stuff back, (wich I couldn't get, I just got new stuff) and I lost all of my rare and very uniquely and extremely rare items. My friends ignored the fact that I died, and had to spend the rest of the day getting my stuff back, and they never replied when I said; "Can you guys please give me (some type of item)? Are you there?" They never replied, and continued doing what they were. And again, when one of my other friends died, everyone helped that person. They gave her/him all rare items that they didn't have before, and lots of good stuff, and other good gears. But of course that kinda ties in to how I feel, ignored, and not noticed. :( I just wanted to tell you guys that. My other friends have been feeling the same way.


Now, off the topic of servers, This happened on a place where most of my friends enjoy talking to each other. Every time one of my friends started talking, everyone fell silent and didn't reply. After the person stopped talking, everyone else continued what they were doing, not answering their question/comment. This is also making one of my friends depressed. I am sorry, but I really

don't like It when people are ignored like this.It's been a tough day, and I really am not happy. :(

Also, (back to the server thingy,) even though I play the server 24/7, my friends say I hardly and barely play it. And when I told them about them ignoring me, this is what they said. "You hardly ever play on [server], and that's why I don't do it." In fact, they were helping the player that played on the server more than half less the time I play it. This now really made me unhappy. Especially the way they treat my friends, which also play the server more often than the player that's getting all of luxury. I am just saying How I feel about this. Please, stop doing this. <:( I am having enough problems IRL, other than getting scars. My life is bad enough. I don't wanna have to leave you guys....Because you are the only people who ever don't ignore me. Thanks for reading this. :(

 

Well, for the stuff happening at school, you should really tell an adult.
If you feel neglected, then you can always find new people to play with, or just try a completely different server or game.
There's over 7 billion people out there, I'm sure you can find a TON of people who will never ignore you, treat you well, and always be good friends to you.
And besides, if people aren't treating you well, they aren't real friends. And if all they do is bully you, who the heck needs em?
What I would suggest is maybe trying a new online game or server to find some new people you can chat with, and at school, definitely tell an adult about that. I mean, if they're giving you cuts for no reason, that's pretty serious.
Also, try not to let feelings build up. Share them like you did here.
Imagine stress like a little ball inside of you. However, if you don't release it, it will keep swelling up and getting bigger and bigger until it takes control of your whole body. You don't want that to happen. So you should just maybe write down your feelings, share them here, talk to someone you really trust, or maybe even just punch the crap out of a pillow. ;) That will help release stress, and make it easier to control.

 

Well, then there is one thing I have to say:

If someone is cutting you, scratching, biting, ignoring, and harassing you...

You should realize they aren't your friends; if they don't care, you shouldn't either or you will be the only one getting hurt.

 

Well if your "friends" do that kind of stuff. Don't call them your friends. It's a false title for them.

But I understand what you mean, about being ignored. I am always the 3rd wheel.
Irl, there is only ONE person I can turn to. Her name, is Tyhlir. She is my best friend...nobody can ever replace her. Internet is different from real life. Trollestia (srry don't know name) let me just tell you this.

Friendship is like money.
Would you rather have a thousand pennies, or 1 gold.

 

I would do that. But I feel like I need to punch them in the face more. The problem is, they aren't just bullies. They are friends with everyone in my class. They aren't bullies to their other friends, except me. Everyone plays cool with them, and I try too, but the only respect I get is none.

Its good to know someone cares at least.

There is indeed a reason people hate me in my school, although yet I have to find that out.
I can indeed make more threads about what's going on, but I don't want to spill it out.
Last time I did this, people just said "Keep your negativeness to yourself." "Quit making everyone so depressed." "Just keep this to yourself, or talk to your parents, (Which I did, but they never do anything really)."
But my life so far these past 11 years is tough. :( I don't like it at all...It's really up to you guys if you want me to make more of these.
But I overreact all the time, because I have Bipolar, ADD, and Anxiety Disorder. (My Anxiety: Basically Bipolar, but I think affects your dreams more, since my dreams are always quite scary and deadly.)

You guys are literally the only friends I have. Except, I have 3 other friends in my school, but they also get disrespected, and one even tried commiting suicide. My 6 years in this school are terrible. :( (I go to a school where it goes up to 6th grade, but luckily our community in these schools get super great grades even for 6th grade in elementary.)

 

Listen Lidia, I'm sorry for ever ignoring you, you are one of the only ones who can cheer me up with your enthusiastic and awesome personality. I just don't want to hear that you are going through something like this at such a nice time of the year, :( You do understand how awesome of a friend you are on TS. If your friends are doing this to you, then you need to tell a teacher. Please just don't leave, you only add to the amazing community that is the Jerry and Harry server. Thank you for reading :)

 

I am yet to meet you, but you seem pretty nice. I read the whole thing, and that's pretty shocking. Like the rest say, just stop being friends with them, and hang out with your current friends. Just remember, 95% of the IJAH community are there for you, and we won't ever turn our backs on you :3

 

Well those are not friends. They are mad. Mad.

 

Some things to address that many of you skipped over. Now Lidia, this isn't flaming you, so don't start on me:

"avoid making negative comments, like most of you guys prefer doing" What do you mean by that? That is actually offensive to us, saying that we love to post negative comments. Its called criticism, and its in the world all around you. Please refrain from posting things like this.

Now, these "friends". They are definitely not what you make them out to be. "Friends" don't purposely cut you. And if they can't respect a woman saying "no" (Yes, it seems hypocritical of me to say this) then they aren't ready for the world outside. If they are hurting you, you need to report this. Immediately. You have done nothing to have this sort of treatment done to you.

Now, this "MMO" server is happening a lot, and its really pissing me off. Albino is the same way, and I have even said that I am pissed at her for doing this. We can do what we want. Even if its on a different server, you have no right to go and piss at us for it. And if you're being ignored? You would be doing the same to us if you were playing it. Even if you were playing SG, the same thing would be happening, except you would be ignoring us.

The person giving out free items to their friends, that's how life is. Its unfair, and I had to learn that the hard way, as many others did. You just can't do anything about that, i'm afraid.

Same with this. Its life.


Same as above...

 

I never ignore people :(

In fact, i've given all my diamond armor to a friend of mine in need. And other ones too. :( this really makes me feel like you guys still hate me. :(

 

If you cared to read that full sentence, it said "And if you're being ignored? You would be doing the same to us if you were playing it. Even if you were playing SG, the same thing would be happening, except you would be ignoring us."

Next time, read the full sentence before replying.

 

ok :( whatever you say