I feel as if my insides are falling out.

Okay first of all, please do not think I'm feeling depressed or sorry for myself. I'm just expressing my feelings to the server. I know I brought a lot on myself. What do you expect? I am a 12 year old who pretended to be 17. (New fact to people who play games other than oitc and skybock).

I want to say my apologies to the server. I know my past year or two (forgot) have been immature for me. I acted like a dick to a lot of people. Now that I am 12, I understand that pain.

Just last Thursday, 15th of May, 2014.
I was furious with a girl at school. I went up to her and said, "I am going to kill you." I was sent to the police with a Juvenile Arrest. Ever since then, my friends have been afraid of me. People see me and run away, as if I am going to kill them, too.

I want to restart. Start a new type of mutual relation. I already have 2 warnings. I don't want anymore. I expect comments like "about time!" But I understand that. The people on skyblock2 have been ignoring me when I ask a question. Basically treating me like a ghost who doesn't exist. Though I used to rage at oitc, I stopped playing as much. When I rage, I usually bottle it up unless it gets serious. I would like to thank my friends, MudKipper85, DesiredMC, Courtlynn, McRufus and X8xXPunisherXx8X for helping me through these tough times. A thousand thank yous sent to them.

This is no letter of depression or sorrow, this is a message to the server that I want to start over. I don't want to be the guy that everyone hates.

Your friend, Kuzon55, the Melonman :)

 

You must be that guy who keep calling me a noob that other day in OITC. Apology Accepted.

 

Kuzon. Problems don't suck blood. The knots in your mind do. Take a break and clear up your mind.

 

I never realised that anyone hated you, but never expected you were 12. Like @EliteShadowMiner said, you should take a break and come back and we will pretend that you have a clean sheet and treat you as if you did nothing wrong :)

 

Dude, I am here for you. Anytime.

 

First step towards restarting isn't going straight to negativity. The problem will only exacerbate if you allow it to so I suggest not calling yourself a retard.

The next step is to act friendly towards other players and get known here and there for being positive and not negative. Good luck in your future and I hope to see you some time!

 

didn't see that coming

 

Ty

 

Fake...

 

How would you know?

 

You know why it's not fake, because I've personally talked to him about it. You don't know him like I do...so I suggest keeping your comments to yourself. Thanks.

 

Well, it is unsafe to trust such things on the internet.

 

True, but this is a guy who lots of people have trusted.

REALLY!? SERIOUSLY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! he just wants to say he's sorry and wants to start over from all his lies, and you come up and say "FAKE"?! I'm sorry, but I'm furious with you. Kuzon here is just trying to make up for his mistakes and you just ignore it like someone who's selfish, greedy and doesn't want people to change. PEOPLE SHOULD CHANGE AND HAVE TO, it's a way of life. I'm sorry if this offended you, but this hurt his feelings a lot probably due to the things he's going through. I"m shouting because its' 9:45 pm, I have a project due soon I haven't even STARTED, and a lot of things are on my mind too. Seeing this makes me so sad at what people are becoming. If this post causes hate, I'll delete it.

 

Easy Mr. Evvvee (Cant spell it right :P ) His just a Spambot (No offence but you created a spam thread before) with a lot of mistrust on this guy.

 

I did? What spam thread?

 

Nope, not a spambot. I actively play on this server. Highland Businesswoman was a random thread for fun in random spam, not sure how spambot is derived from that.

All I'm saying is, this thread may or may not be true. However, on the internet, people use all sorts of tactics to create a positive image of themselves in your mind. So trust no one.


Also, all I'm talking about is the story. If he's apologizing, that's all good.

 

Thanks, friends. Spambots are annoying, but I am trying tot to retaliate anymore. Thanks for the support. I'll start on a new sheet of paper to fill out.

 

kuzon, get better. Take a break from the server. That always helps me. IRL, u should start reaching out to people. Despite them being afraid of u, help them at times that they can't refuse. For example, if u overhear people talking about not knowing what the homework was. Jump in and tell them what it is. You half to work toward forgiveness. It may be a hard thing, but it will be worth it in the end.

 

This is something I can relate to (In real life). I know how you feel. Kuzon, do what you need in real life to recover, and when you come back, I'm sure the most of us can accept you for the person you truly are and can be. When you come back, I will treat you like I treat everyone else (Except for a selected few), with respect.