What becoming staff did to me.

Hello,

I know you thought that this would be a trashing-staff thread, which, if you're still wondering for some reason, it's not.

This is very dear to me, and I would like to share it with everyone.

• "Why did you put this in the "Real Life" section?"

You'll see later on.

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I'll start with when it all started, but i'll breeze through it.

September 2015
I join the forums for the first time. That's not very remarkable, I get it, don't trash me for it, it's more of a "the first time I applied for staff" monumental thing.

(skip an entire year of applying and getting denied)

September 2016
I apply for the 5th time. Again, not very remarkable, but I got better from my first application, I gave it effort. I waited over 5 months, and then,

March 2017
I close my application. A lot happened in March and on. I became far more active, cared way more about this server and it's lovely community. I realized that I can't just apply and expect it to be accepted instantly. I had to be patient, think about what I am typing and proof-reading.

April 2017
My favorite month of 2017 (and May). I re-applied for staff on April 5th, and this time, I felt incredibly confident about my application. I was incredibly prepared for the challenge(s) ahead and I went in with no regrets. On April 28th, I was "considered" (not going to reveal anything). This was already exciting news for me.

May 2017
I become Helper on May 28th, 2017. A month after being considered.

Now you're probably at the stage of: "What does this have to do with the title?"
Well, this is exactly what it has to do with it.

Before April, I was suffering from something, something that just crippled my mood. My grades were sent to the dump, was bullied and was made fun of on a daily basis for being pansexual. The moment I opened my mobile browser and saw the message, I nearly broke down into tears, I was at school in the library. I looked around at my friends, but then I realized they didn't care. It was tough to overcome the fear of being taunted.

I suffered the next month, impatiently, but at the same time patient (the limbo) for a reply. I was anxious. This was my dream. This is my dream. It was something I had been trying to do for 2 years, I had gone through multiple traumatic experiences in that time, and this amazing community has managed to push me through it. That alone shows how powerful people can be, emotionally.

The exact moment I was accepted. I was laughing, crying and an overall mixture of fear and happiness rolled over my body. I tried looking for someone to show, but yet again, nobody cared.

This time, I wasn't going to sit back and let my confidence drain, cause I was motherfucking Expedect, and Expedect doesn't sit back and do nothing. I went straight to the community of this server where people cared. The "Congrats!" messages were flooding in and I felt so special, for once in my life, it took me out of this depression I thought I would never get out of.

You all mean the world to me. Without you, I may not be the same.

Thank you for being amazing.

Expedect

 

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Awwwww! I'm glad that you've found a community that appreciates you and accepts you. That's what we all need/deserve.
Thank you for sharing your story!

 

very proud of you

 

Don't thank us, Thank your heart. We didn't do anything apart from the staff considering you. Your dream made you become a helper and that is what you wanted to follow. Your heart did this and we only considered you being a helper, to make your dream come true. We thank you, You don't thank us, We thank you for being there.

 

I'm glad everyone accepts you, great community this is turning into!

 

I'm happy you got out of your depression or that emotional state you were in, no one should feel like that. I'm glad you got accepted after years of trying! Hope you enjoy your time as a staff! :)

 

Good for you Karl hope everything continues doing well for you c;