The Green-Eyed Monster

So if any Shakespeare fans get the reference, this thread is about jealousy. No, this thread isn't about an actual green-eyed monster, it's just a term coined by Shakespeare that refers to jealousy. In his play, Othello, Othello is overcome by "the green-eyed monster" when he sees one of his best friends having an affair with his wife.

This is probably gonna be one of those threads that no one bothers to look at, but I hope people are able to be humane and rational so that we are able to share and respect each other's stories. I want to ask you guys and gals if there has ever been a time that you have been jealous or envious. You could share what happened or if it hurt you, but just have a flexible mind when it comes to it. We're all ears, hopefully. (Technically, eyes)

As for myself, I have been jealous before, but it's one of those silly things where I'm just jealous of what other people have and I've always been able to keep it in. As I'm heading into college, however, I'm just thinking if I'm actually able to do all these things I want to do because my parents have never shared any financial information with me. I look at what other people have and their lives and truthfully, I'm envious. I want to have the things that other people but I just don't have the money to buy it. I think that I'm fortunate to live in the US economy and not in poverty, (actually, half of the time I just want to move to Japan because of where we're heading) but then I realize that there's no point in living in an economy like this when the people who provide me with income don't really notice that I can't do certain things with the technology I have access to. My friends are really the only ones who care that I can't do those things and they completely understand. They even loan tech to me on a daily basis if I need it for something, so I'm very satisfied with that. The point is, I have been jealous of what people can do as opposed to what I can do, and it just upsets me sometimes when people give me high expectations that I can't even reach. The people I have as friends and family mean more than anything in the world to me and I can't ask for anything better, yet it would be nice to have a change once in a while. That change was when I joined the forums and I finally felt that I could do something with my life.

So that's my story with jealousy that I cope with every single day. Now, I ask you, thread-reader, have you ever felt this negative feeling of jealousy and has it ever affected your life in a way that makes you feel something different than what you usually feel?

 

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Jealousy?
That's some topic you got there,
I have my own times of jealousy.

These times were mostly on everybody, it's dependent on my mood. If I'm sad, I'll be jealous to someone who is happier than my normal happiness, because it craves me to have that kind of happiness. That these people rarely have sad moments in their lives, they don't care anything that is happening around them. They just keep smiling, which is something I want to have in life. Being a stupid and happy person, who doesn't care anything around them and live life. It's like the same thing when I feel lonely, but I bit different. Whenever I see a group of friends chatting or go shopping together, makes me sad and jealous. Because I mostly overthink my past when I'm in that state, reminding who I was before. A lonely kid who was in place similar to hell for 7 years, where people treat me trash yet I kept being nice to them. It's like having an unbreakable leash on my neck, being held back from my past. And the only way to get that leash off me is to find a key to unlock my leash from my neck, to do that is to keep moving on. Because grieving the past won't help, it'll just make the leash shorter and shorter until you really became the past. So, moving foward is the best way because it'll make the leash longer and longer to have a lot of space to feel freedom from the past.

But anyways, jealousy is a thing to my mood. It's also a good thing for me because I feel human when I'm jealous. :P