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Lol

 

Ok Im pretty sure all of this is just going to cause more negative feelings to other people I see why a thread like this is made but thats more of something you do through PM or Skype. Sometimes, I really fucking hate myself. I calm down for a little and do something I enjoy ( like Cod or even the forums). Also since this is online, not Real Life, you never know what goes on in someones life. You cant see it happen. With that being said, you should really tell people to stop calling themselves negative things, unless you know that person really well.

 

O_o this time you "love" me. Not "luff"

 

Don't tell me to not hate myself. You seriously have no idea what goes on in my life.

 

I'm not depressed and I'm actually glad about that. Though I do let myself down a lot, I try not to but I can't help it.
And today I found out something that made me feel way better, but I just...uh...I don't really know.

 

this is all to much words to read

 

I didn't judge you nephew @Nether0 , Because I already had that problem before. I don't judge people by their looks, Wealth, Pride, Courage.. or Anything..
I only judge people by their attitude and respect to someone else.

My eyes already opened a month ago thanks to @KittycatplaysMC .
I mostly sit down and do nothing for like everytime I hit a depression.
Thinking the past mistakes I did, because 75% of my life is just pain.
I just think good, positive things in life.
Sometimes thinking If I can show my face to kitty (Which will happen tomorrow)
I.. just think love to remove my depression or sadness.
And listening music..
*Huff* Nobody knows me very well except to the people I trust and love.

 

What's up.

 

I'm very shy in real life. Whenever I talk, I kinda get either ignored, become a big deal, or swore at if it's at recess. Because of this, I can have...sudden raging moments...and that really makes me stressed. A lot of people hate me and call me bad and not good enough or stuff like that. It's just frustrating and makes me think I'm not a good person.
Dis thread made my day, because I am bootiful in my own way. Whether it be looks or something else, we all have our own beauty.

Spoiler: Secret

I have a secret, and only Eli knows it. If he tells any of you, don't tell anyone else, this is just so big for me...I WON'T TELL ANYONE ELSE...c:

 

Can I know plz
Or ask @ProxKipper? :P

 

well den you're gonna hafta pm him in a convo. I don't like people knowing secrets.
EDIT: There's a reason why I chose Eli and not another close friend...

 

Yep.. just like my new cat Osborn.
He tries to open the door of my closet O_o He's trying to get the doll of my childhood.

 

Wow that was beautiful...

 

I mean who cares if your ugly Shadow Rilou? It isn't the outside that counts, its the inside. Now cheer up buddy, we like you. I mean I heard about the challenges you faced In real life, but you got a long way ahead of you and who knows? good things may occur. We are trying our best right now to make you better Shadow. So don't be sad.

 

Some of us are born ugly (cough star & I ;)) and we can't change that...as much as we want to.

 

I know, but meh :/

 

That's the whole reason most of us are here.
We can't accept who we are so we come on here as our wanted egos, communicating in a way of which we want to.

 

But escaping here is fun, exactly why I am here right now.
Notice the amount of time I have spent here?
My total amount of alerts exceeds 10,000.
I wouldn't have that much time if I had a life and stuff.

 

How... How do you know about the challenges I have faced in real life?.. If you have known that, then you know that nothing can change who I am...

I am sorry Wolf and others that may have tried to convince me, but I just cannot. My life has developed into the form of which I am in now, and it seems to be with me here on out. It doesn't look very promising if you personally asked me.