Sorry [Extended version] [More of a Confession]

Hey, it's me Enderbrine.
And this is the sorry thread, extended version.
No purple font, no being inspirational guy who puts quotes on his profile, no cheerful stuff, just me.
The guy who lives in reality and posts that is the opposite of him on the internet

My real name is David (Someone will go captain obvious on this one because of my skype account xD), I'm a 15 year old Filipino and everything or mostly everything you know about me are Lies.

This might a bit personal, but I need to get this off.

I'm just a kid with a younger brother, we're half chinese and half filipino. I'm supposed to be a 4th year highschool student this year but I repeated in kinder to confirm my I.Q. (Because I was raised in china in a very young age then moved back to the Philippines to continue my education there) so I'm a 3rd year highschool student.

When I first came to my 1st grade on my elementary school on my first day, I got beaten up by someone. After that incident, I never told my mother about it nor the guidance because I was afraid. And that's where my life taken a big toll to a cliched teenager of this generation. I was a tall and big kid, but I never used my strength or hurt those people because I was raised from a great mother who taught me to be good, to be humble. (The family motto was to be humble.) Not to be blinded in my own anger and beat my opponents down. But in honesty, I kept that anger within me to grow big enough until I snap to get payback from them.
It never happened.
They called me, mocked me, called me crazy.. which made me feel so bad. Because they didn't know that I study with a tutor, I had a problem with my speech and speaking Filipino. (Which I still have trouble with.) And I felt like they're right, I would look at the mirror and see myself on what they said about me.
I get to make little friends because of my reputation but I was grateful to have them.
Grade 3
Then I began to learn how to lie, to avoid them. But it failed so miserably on every time, as that stuff happens. I discovered Minecraft thanks to a friend I made with, its because of his drawings about it and I was fascinated about it. So, I got myself a cracked version of Minecraft then that's how it began.

Since that day, I became very neutral to my enemies at school. I don't care what they to do to me, I'd just wanted to go home and play Minecraft with my friends on a server.
It started out as a local server from my country, then I went to factions. And it thought me a lot on that server, it taught me about teenagers, how to fit in to survive the real world, how to lie better (Yes, that's a thing), it taught that in this world.. There are always liars and bullies. It taught me about love yet it also taught me how to not mess up love at the same time, The server was basically giving me a heads up on the future. I own my life to it so much, that I bought Minecraft on November 27th, 2013.

I played different popular servers around that date, until..

December 2013
I found this server, (I know it's December, I forgot the exact date) I started out as a creative 2 player.(Times when NSFW clubs aren't that illegal) The place where I created my first friends on the server like Anoushka, KolyaPlays or whatever IGN he has right now (I know he's still playing on Creative) @CapsaLock and SoraRiku.
I started out as a bartender on a club, then I became one of known club owners in Creative 2 (SFW one) but of course, it had a lot of setbacks from going to point A to point B. I had frustrations with Capsa (No offence) from her problems in real life that she told me that she gets bullied and stuff, and everytime we build something on her plot. She would literally CLEARED it and asks me to build a building which takes a lot time which will be cleared again, which is why I abandoned her. Tried to pretend I didn't knew her, but I couldn't see the sadness on her. So, I'd helped again. But she suddenly gone without telling me, until I saw her again on this website.

May 2, 2014
I came here, this is my first forum website I have been in my entire life. I have no idea what kind of profile picture I wanted, so I thought of Sasuke Uchiha because my first skin was a Sasuke uchiha reskined by me. But... [Non-anime fans, you might not understand this]
It doesn't mean I'm a true Naruto fan, surely I do own some Naruto games and watched the anime until the Shippuden series started. Afterwards, you know the rest of it.

Now, to clear out something out

Zachary is not real.
But he was born on December 1st, as my alias on the internet. It was around the time when I was in the factions server, knowing these things made me scared. I thought that if I make myself a new name, they wouldn't recognize who I am in real life. But ever since that happened, the name became my second life. A life that I wanted to have in reality, to live a better way than reality.
But as I came here, I'd improvised with it. I'd made up lies about just to make sure no one will know me who I am in real life, but as I undergo my first year on the forums I also felt the bumps in reality too. I was going through my freshman year, which gives me high ups and deep downs. (Which explains the Arrogant August, the time when I'm always serious.) And as people began to leave, and a sudden new players came in. I felt like I'm a new player, which made me forgetting my lies. ( Up to this day, I have no idea who's who in the new & old-ish new staff) But I didn't used this to take advantage over people, no. I tried to help people, so they won't end up feeling worse. I'd also regret on doing some stupid things onto the community, which is painful to remember once in a while.

Then I began to miss everyone, missing all of the members that were once part of this community. I missed all of the fun times, I missed my best friend. I missed them really much. That's why I kind-of had an on-off relationship on this forum, I cared about it at the same time I felt that this community became irrelevant to me. I tried to focus my life but it's taking a toll right now, which made me think of going back here. To check up how's the community doing if it's the same or not.

Why am I making it now?
I'm growing up just like you guys, I'm learning things too.
And I realized I've been in dwelling the past for far too long, that I need to accept what I did before. And accepting what I'm doing right now. [I might need make a new introduction thread, but I don't think I need to.]

So, yeah.
TL;DR
Everything is made up, except some. At least I got it off my chest, I'm tired of lying about myself because I'm now growing up in reality.

 

Wait, your alt account become a helper?

 

ZaCHAry not Zackery lol

 

oh.

 

At first, I had a feeling the whole Zachary thing was a lie, but I never said anything because I wasn't 100% sure. I'm really glad that you got it off your chest, I feel like I can trust you better now that you've been honest about this and confessed, rather than losing trust. You have good intentions for the most part and you're a good person, and I can't blame you because I just made the same mistake with the whole April Fools thing. I'm just really glad you're back because I've missed you. I hope that you actually stay this time, and I'd like to reconnect with you.

 

I'll try, I just need some adjustments of being really myself here. Thank you.

That would be actually cool but in terms of being a staff member for me would be 0%, I literally have very little experience of being a staff member. (It was being some Admin on my friend's server that haven''t been advertised instead it's just a thing for fun like Minecraft Realms) I'm easily tempered if people couldn't come to terms, I might not be on time in schedules since I'm mainly focus on my life outside the internet and I don't really see myself as a staff member. I just wanted to play games and have fun, that's it. xD [Yup, I never made a staff application even on the first day of being here is true]

 

This slayed me so badly lmao. You gotta get those glasses man.

 

@KolyaPlaysx is dead. There's only me now.

Not going to look back at all the cringe.

Well, thanks for being honest.

Even though my whole life is a lie now, I salute you on your bravery.