Just a little something.

So, I guess I should tell you guys something that might explain a few things. I'm going under depression. Some of you already know this, but the ones that do know it don't know the whole story. I mentioned it about 3 months ago, but I've actually had it for much, much more longer. Almost a year, to be exact.

I've been having thoughts on it, mainly because of the events in my life that have been happening. School giving me 2 shit subs while my LA teacher's on maternity leave with one teaching us the wrong lessons and the other having the worst temper you could have ever seen, having me waste my life on their homework, being caught in a bad love triangle, an almost emotionally abusive mother, having ear problems, getting an ear surgery in a month to fix the problems and not being able to use headphones or run or do anything fun until Februrary or the summer, and many more things.

This has gotten to the point where I've even thought of jumping off of a house headfirst on the concrete sidewalk and thus commit suicide. I've tried to keep it secret and put on a fake smile, listen/play to music and do anything that would make me laugh or be happy, but nothing's really working. My parents would just scream at me and make things worse if I told them about this.

This is not a joke. This is a cry for help. Not just from friends, but from the people that I know have helped me through dark times. So yes. Do whatever you like to do in the comments, whether it be try to help me or say kind things. Really, the only thing that I'd want from my friends and potentionally the community is to just be there for me. When I kept this as a secret, after some time, I knew it wasn't helping me at all. So, now I share it to you. The adults and the children of the server. I trust you. Thank you.

EDIT: My emotions are getting more positive over time, as I'm spending more time with friends and talking about it with more people. So, once again, thank you. My thoughts have changed.

 

Ok, well it must honestly be horrible to be in a situation like this. But, lets refrain from any harsh decisions. There's a solution to every problem, as there is to each of these situations. Just be patient and try to make it through all of this. Try to see a doctor or talk with your parent's about the being abusive, or at least someone else close to you, like an aunt or uncle. This is all I'm going to say for now but just do not make any decisions you may regret. You're friends will be devastated. Just try to get through this.

 

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Please don't do it. I don't know you much, but please don't.

Inbox me if you need help <3

 

I'm aware. The only thing that's holding me back is that the problem seems permanent.

 

That's understandable tbh

 

Just think to yourself that whatever is happening, it will end, and you will be happy again. It will surely take effort to make happen. Just remind yourself that it WON'T last forever, and that you will be happy again.

If you still end up sad, try talking to a counselor or a teacher, or even better, your parents.

 

Did you even read the thread...

 

Have you tried talking to them about it? You can't be 100% sure unless you actually do it.

If you still believe your parents won't help at all, I'm sure there are counselors at your school that are there to help you.

If worst comes to worst, PLEASE call the National Suicide Hotline at 1 (800) 273-8255

 

Hey miner, dude.

Just think of this:
Think of the life you are leaving behind. Everyone goes through crappy spots sometimes, but all will be well soon. Got your eye on someone ;)?
Think of starting a family one day with kids of your own and having to go through all that stuff :)
Think of your loved ones. You think your family will yell at you and such...have you tried? Does you family really dislike you to the point where confessing your thoughts will be detrimental to your family bonds?
Think of the fact that you leave impressions on everybody, and that I bet some people think you're the coolest guy and want to hang out with you.
Think of the legacy you leave behind.
Think of the grief you will bring everyone around you; the ones who care about you so much (don't take this the wrong way, you are who you are. Your feelings shouldn't stop you from making your independent choices).

Most of all, think of everybody you know, whether it be in-game, or irl. Think of how much joy they have brought you.

Miner, I am always here to talk to and I community is always a place to talk.

 

The parent thing is temporary. Think about it; You are 13. In ten years, you will be out of the said love triangle with a gf/wife, your ears will be fixed, you wont be living with your parents, and you'll most likely have a job and be out of school entirely.

Permanent solutiom to a temporary problem.
Miner, youre a great friend. You have to wait. Time heals.

 

Hey Miner. I know things in life may seem tough now, but almost everything you mentioned is truly temporary. I'm going to pick out a few things to adress specifically:

How long will your LA teacher be on maternity leave? If it isn't going to be much longer, you don't have to worry too much. If it's going to be for the rest of the year, all you can really do is work through it. But, if they're overloading you with homework, I might be able to help you out with it. If your homework doesn't make sense or you have too much of it, you can send me a PM with any questions.

If you feel like you're being abused, it's CRUCIAL that you speak up to somebody about it. Start by maybe talking to a counsellor at school about how you feel, or maybe even call a Help hotline: http://hotlines.50webs.com/usa.html#ChildAbuse

As for the ear surgery thing, you do need to get the surgery. But while waiting for your ear to heal, ask your doctor if there's anything you could use to make you able to wear headphones, or how long until you can. If there's no way, you could play games without them for a while and maybe listen to the radio if you have one.

Remember: This will pass. I promise.

 

I'm so sorry, I can't imagine being in your situation. But once, I heard something like this.

Everyone is unique, if you do commit suicide, we have suddenly lost whatever it was that was unique about them. Which can, in fact, be life changing. Talk to a counselor or a close friend, because we all care about you and we'll always be here for you. We want the best for you, so please, don't do it. You'll get through this, I promise. You are kind, smart, strong and wonderful in so many ways. Nobody wants to lose that in someone.

 

You will always have me to talk too.

Like others said call a helpline like childline if you are being abused.

 

Miner,
You were happy everytime I saw you, but I'm seeing what's wrong now.
Committing suicide won't help, it's a kind of murder and you might go to hell (literally).
Sorry if that offended you, but I encourage you to keep going. You'll make it c:
Still don't get why your parents would shout at you for that. If you give them an explicit explanation of why you're going through this, you could get help from others. Suicide ain't the answer. Being happy is.

We'll make it through miner i promise gurl you can do it c;

Good luck Miner!
You can do it!


EDIT: Ok, I'm seeing your mother is abusive. You gotta talk to someone about it. You cannot be afraid to speak out, I heard parents abusing their sons/daughters is a felony, so you HAVE to speak to someone about this.