Venting Station

The place where you vent your anger. This is the place for people who have problems they want to share, or just really want to let lose their anger.

If you have problems with any of the comments, just ignore it and let out that anger here, but not directed to someone. If a flame war starts, and seems to continue, this thread will be locked.
Ok, just vent now please.

 

My freakin punched me in my face I punched back he fell down (it was kinda hard yea)and a teacher saw it and she was like ''Wow Mehmet what are you doing to your friend ?'' And made us hug each other... WTF ?

 

I have to finish a freaking 1000 word paper before tomorrow and haven't started

 

There are so many screwed up people in my school. Druggies, Ghettos, people who talk to thw wrong person about the wrong thing(people offering me drug deals, or just walking up to me and joking about touchy subjects, e.g. making someone your sex slave, drugging their GF, or just talking about a recent gangbang in the middle of class). But what really got me pissed recently was when this person in my school decided to track me down and get my IP. He then proceeded to threaten tear down my computer infastructure and DoS me for denying a drug deal. Mind you, I have never done any recreational drugs, even if they are 'medicinal'. The funny thing is, he failed, and the software he was going to use to attack my router failed on him, and even gave him a trojan.

And then today came, and shit got real. I knew he was still pissed at me, and I didn't feel safe. I ended up bringing a tazer with me. And trust me, here is where it gets amazing.

Let me just explain this. During my freshman year, my school actually had fights. Now people are too high to throw a punch and wimp out. So, the moment this druggie saw me, he fucking dashed. I didnt even notice him till he was sprinting across the courtyard. So, telling my friend to stay by my bag, I grabbed my tazer and chased him down. I wasn't going to let some white trash, intrusive, gangbanging druggie threaten my way of life and not get taught a thing or two. I cornered him behind one of the buildings. We had some chats, and here's where things got interesting.

I finally said, 'You think you can try to sell me drugs, try to ruin my equipment, and put me on the brink of nothing? Are you fucking kidding me? Well how about you face me like your father taught you to.' And then the fight started. He threw a few punches, and I didn't throw any. I had my tazer in my pocket and I wanted him to get close before I tazed him. Finally he resolved to CQC and at that moment, with both of us locked, I pulled out my tazer and got him right in the gut. Honestly, he fell like paper. Weak to the core, and that's what amused me. 'If you even think of putting the blame on me, I have the entire call of you threatening me recorded.' I snickered, and simply strolled off. The tazer was enough to subdue him for a minute or two, but nothing too strong. I knew that.

TL;DR: Life in SFL isn't like it's displayed on Tv and whatnot. Drugs and sex are rampant, and people are duplistic wimps who think that their selfish asses are the most important thing on this earth. And, in a situation where my belongings was threatened, I had to act with quick, tactical thinking. You have to be tough, no matter where you go. Any sign that you can't stand up to yourself is another chance to get used. Stick to yourself, and no one else.

 

Good on ya, didnt you get into trouble?

 

No, considering that my actions were in self defense

 

Guess I'll join in.
Mk, so whenever I'm in my gifted classes, half the kids there bully me, tease me and nitpick me, even give me nicknames for the one thing I do. Basically, I'm a person's enjoyment. Not in a good way. They treat me like a bag of dirt, and if I tell the teacher, they'll say "Oh, just deal with it" or "Oh, just ignore them." or "They're just kids, let them be". WTH? I'm trying to get help here from bullies, and they just ignore it. Every day I deal with this, which is why you'll see me in a bad mood 1/4 the time you talk to me.

 

Um
My baseball team has a record of 3-9 now :I

 

I love how people stereotype all Beatle fans as being annoying even though a lot of them aren't. (I'm one of the annoying ones.)

I also like how every Sunday my brother threatens to send me to a foster home. (Mind you he's 27.)

Oh yeah, my rooster makes me mad by crossing the road whenever a car passes by. Stupid suicidal bird.

 

Venting, fun?
Okay, first topic. Sex vs Gender. They are TWO DIFFERENT THINGS. Sex is what you are born as, gender is what you identify as. Take myself for example, I was born a male, and I identify as non-binary(gender). Respecting someone's pronouns is one of the greatest things. You ask them what they are when you meet a person. Mine, are they/them. Misgendering is annoying, disrespectful, and just rude. PLEASE, if you meet someone; ask for their pronouns. Say, Bob, born a male, identifies as a transgender female or maybe a gender fluid, and they want to take on the pronouns 'she'. I would call them she.
Disrespect within the LGBTQ+ community, people that are gay, trans, bi, and so on are HUMANS just like straight people. We are no different. I'm pansexual, and am not afraid of saying that. I enjoy being who I am. Treat everyone like a human, because in my mind; we're all equal and put on this earth for a reason.
Man v Woman, are you serious? A woman can do what a man can, a man can do what a man can. We're equal, and people fight daily for gender equality. I believe that we should be treated the same. It's annoying when a man with lower qualifications will get chosen over a women with higher qualifications during a job interview and so on.
This is something that is a direct effect on me, as the things above are too. I really do love MCR, yes. But when people call me an 'obsessed fan'. You can stop right there partner, I am NOT obsessed. They mean a lot to me, and you are invalidating that. Yes, I do talk about them a lot, I am aware of that. Wouldn't you talk about something or someone who basically saved your life? I'm very grateful for each and everyone of the members of MCR. Yes, I do listen to other music as you can see I post on these forums. So, if you are one of those people who say those things to me. You are free to stop. I'm not one of those 'annoying mcr fans'. I don't even consider myself a part of the fandoms.
Bashing other people's' music tastes. Yo man, music is art and art is a great thing that is a big part of my life (as long with many others). You may not like music others listen to but that doesn't give you the right to hate on the person or the music itself. That music could be helping that person through tough times. You like music, I like music. Cool, lets chat about it. Art is art, and you should appreciate it.
Bullying. Obvious topic, can we please treat everyone with respect and like a human being for sake? It'd be nice to get some respect. It gets annoying when you are talked over, ignored or just plain left alone. This happens to me all the time, and I'm aware that I may accidently talk over people but in the end I always apologize. I am a very sympathetic person. Moving on. Putting others down for your own personal pleasure is just wrong, and cruel. Correcting people, is just rude. Wake up call, making fun of people is getting you no where. At the end of the day, we should all get along. We are humans.
This is something that personally affects me very much. If you are going to joke about depression, STOP. Please. It is not fun, and I hate it. I'm sure many others do to. If you're gonna call someone an attention whore, this person may actually need help. Stop and ask them how they are doing. See if they need help. I'm not going to go into the topic of depression as much as I'd like to because I've experienced it, been diagnosed and all that jazz, because this is a minecraft forum and isn't appropriate to speak about here.
Bashing others for what they like. Holy mother of Frank, if you don't like something someone else likes; DON'T talk about it. Simply ignore it. The excuse 'i can't ignore it' is old/overused. You can ignore it. Let the other person enjoy the things they like, instead of ruining it for them. Maybe listen to the person.
This is something here on the forums, I never really talk about them but this is just an arrogant thing people do. 'bye, see you next week" or something of that nature. Don't make a comment at all if you're gonna do that. This could possibly hurt the person, or even worse idk. I just think it's rude. Stop.
Stereotyping. This is one of the most annoying, and stupid things I've ever come across in my 15 years of living on this planet. 'Emo', 'Scence', and so on. If you joke about it, cool I guess. But if you are actually calling yourself emo, and so forth. You can stop, you are placing yourself in a category, you are a human freakin' being. It's somewhere you don't belong. Don't even get me started on popularity. There's no such thing, we are all human like I have stated many times before. Why do you care if you are popular or not? Why! We should all get along, and cool you don't have to be friends and be attached but at least for the love of, please get along. And be nice. Not that hard.
I could continue, but I think some of the most important things have been said. So, I wrote a book, you read it. If you have negative comments, refrain from saying them please. I'd like to see what others have to 'vent' about. Please, I'm begging you guys not to have a argument over what I have said.
Good day :) If I have anything else to say, I will state it at a later date or as soon as I think of it.
bye.

 

I would rather stand up to bullies and die than too purposly bully

 

I don't normally vent out to people, unless it's people I trust, 100%. But ya' know, I guess I've been here long enough to trust you guys. I mean, this is nothing big, but I just felt the feel to say it... Type it, whatever.


I. Hate. Humanity. I don't mean to be one of those assholes who seem like they just stroll around saying "Fuck humanity and mankind," or whatnot, but I have my reasons. If you want the reasons, I'll tell you in a profile post since what I say, may be something that one should NOT say.

But, moving on to one of the things that only furthered my hatred towards humanity, it's this generation (Or moreso, the kids at my school of this generation, or whatnot.) My school, is a public school. I live in a better part of my County, north, not south. (South is literally where all the gangsters and rapists are for the county I'm in. And I'm not exaggerating either. There are metal detectors in some of the schools in the southern part of my county. I would know; I've been to one of them.) But even with living in a better part of the county I live in, the kids at my school... Are complete dickheads. This is literally how people are classified in my school:
-Popular
-Nerd/Geek
-Attention seeking whores
-Normal people
-Outliers

And it is literally people against people. Our teachers do their best to stop anyone from breaking out into fights... Despite it happening anyways, but as long as this stupid chain of classification is at hand, it ain't ending anytime soon. What irritates me, is that I'm put in the "popular," area just simply because of a couple popular girls who like me, and because I'm "unique," to people, especially considering I'm Chinese. There are so many dumbfucks around my school, and I know four people who directly smoke weed, or something like that. (One is a vapor cigarette, but still.) What confuses me is, "Why the fuck aren't they in jail already? I'd think they'd be arrested by now." Well, apparently it's "None of my business." Guess fucking what guys, it is. I'm getting second-hand smoke if you continue doing this shit. Bathroom or not, it's illegal. The only reason I haven't beaten the shit out of them by now, is for two reasons:

1. I have a VERY clean record at my school (Yes, the demon who hates humanity has a clean streak). I don't intend to break it anytime soon. I don't want to end 8th grade being known for being a bully.
2. Those four are the kinds that can pin me down. Okay, I won't lie, and I'm not trying to brag, but I am strong. I can lift 85lb weights (One on each arm) easily with no problem. (Yes, I go to a gym. Is that so surprising?) But those four combined, can beat the shit out of me.

The people at my school, or specifically those people, I hope, will rot in hell, where I will stand asides, assisting in their torment. I would show you who they were, but I can only show you VIA Skype, for I would technically be breaking the law VIA Cyber-bullying or Cyber-Stalking (?). Even then, I would have to remove the picture afterwards.

Furthermore, there are some wisecracks who think they're tougher than me in a fair one verse one brawl. Every time, I will reply, "Then please, throw the first punch. I can't be held liable since you started the fight. I'm only defending myself." And after a moment or so, the person will reply, "Nah, I don't want to hurt you." From there, I think, "Really? Are you fucking serious? First, you cat all tough and mighty, and now you chicken off like a little wimp? Pathetic." Of course, I wouldn't say it, as in my school handbook, I would be held liable for provoking the fight. And, as I said before, I have a clean streak, and don't intend to break it.

Then, there are the sluts and fuckers at my school. By fuckers, I literally mean the term of which I call them. Yeah, even after taking health, learning about all the risks, those dumb asses think it's a great idea to "Experiment." So guess what? They have it. Outside of school at least, but if you're going to do it, the least you could fucking do is not TELL THE ENTIRE FUCKING SCHOOL. I mean seriously, does it look like any of us would give two shits about you two doing it? I think not.

Back to the one before this one, they decided that it'd be a GREAT IDEA to go ahead and start making rumors about me being scared to fight and wimping out of the fight THEY initiated. Now, I have a current reputation of being a coward. For some of you that don't know, I take reputation seriously. If I want to be a well known sales manager or something, and make a good living and have a good reputation so I get hired more often, I need to keep my cool, which is what I'm doing, but I feel I'm on the verge of killing someone or at least hospitalizing someone to show that I AM NOT AFRAID of standing up. The only thing restraining me is the damned school rules.

I honestly think that not all humanity is bad, but let's face it. At least 25% of Americans have the habit of smoking, drinking, doing illegal gambling/minor gambling or whatnot, and even the kids are drinking and doing it at such an early age. In fact, that 25% might be a fucking 50%, if not more. I just think that it may be the school I go to, but as much as I hate it, I just can't ask to transfer to another school. I already made such strong progress academically, and I plan to continue it in my high school, of which I will have to deal with the EXACT SAME PEOPLE from my current school. I don't know if I can handle four more years of this in high school... But I know that at least I won't deal with those fuckers in college, because people like them, have no chance of being accepted to a school I'm destined to be in: Georgia Tech, MIT, Stanford, etc. (Currently leaning for GT.)

I just had to vent out about these people, because these are the people in my social life that are driving me insane. I know you guys probably could care less, but oh well, I vented, and that's the important thing I guess.

See you.

 

Oh, maybe I can let go of a few stuff that's been in my mind for four years. So let me tell you a story of how everything went terrifying, from school to THIS COMMUNITY. Yeah. Let's start with school, and my incoming college life.

I got into a public science high school. You know, supposedly the best science high school in my region. When I was still in first year high school, I expected educated people. People that would understand me because they think how I think. Or if unable to process how my mind works, perceptive people. I can't let my Asperger's affect me, not this time? Right? RIGHT?! But I let my emotions hamper me. I liked this guy, we got into a mutual understanding relationship, but I ended it abruptly. Why? Because he was too straightforward. People ask me, "why did you not make him your first boyfriend or something?". I felt insulted. Such narrow minded people. I was interesting because of my romantic feelings? Bringing up the name of that guy insults me on a deep level. It just shows that you only become a role model of the class by having a romantic relationship, which, from then on, I frowned upon.

Second year was a blast. I mean, it was fun and shit, and I met my two best friends. Best friends that never threatened to backstab me. Those rare, trustworthy people. One of them is a writer, and a good one. Why is she hated? Right now, she's 20 years old. She had to stop school for years because of financial problems. For morons that most of the school makes up, that makes her a girl in poverty, unworthy of the rich people treatment in the school. The other is an anime fan. An otaku. She is a complete nerd, and a writer, too. Why is everyone shunning her company? Just because of her passion for what she likes. She doesn't push it into people's throats. So, they're misfits to others, just like me. I'm a socially awkward girl whose principles are different from others'. More disciplined, as I'd like to put it. Other lesser friends, like a feminine boy and an awkward gamer made it into my friends list. And so, I became the shield of my friends, as I'm the one to quickly react violently. And they're all afraid of me when I get mad for insulting my friends, me, my family, my hobbies, etc. When was I only liked? When I was discovered to possess alto-soprano range, making me very, very unique.

Third year was hell. My investigatory project was medicine-oriented. I was the team leader. And then I had to take cover and return fire because, what the hell, you don't like medicine? The most important branch of science? And just because I'm experimenting on a plant, it's bad? This could be a fucking breakthrough, you idiots. Oh so you like the more dangerous and costly projects? Fuck you. You're judging books by the cover. You're funding the ones that, frankly, WOULD BE FAILURES. At least, mine would be a success from the start. it would be worth it to spend on mine instead of "the effect of *insert bacteria that digests protists or something* on dengue virus". Idiots. And then I liked a guy again, and got heartbroken because he went with another girl. Not that I want him to be with me because of previous experience, but because of the constant "how does it feel like to be heartbroken"? Well, damn you, I got trustworthy friends to talk to and not your prissy girls.

Fourth year was fun and hell at the same time. Graduating batch, make the most out of it, don't get on probation. I worked hard on my research project. But hell, one of my guys won't help shit. I tell him that I will drop him from the list. Nothing. I'm not as cruel as to remove the chance of this one to graduate high school. I regret that decision. He only moved when his parents were contacted and given a lengthy sermon on how it would affect his fucking diploma. He was still useless. Only provided the goddamn money. No help indeed. And then my classmates talk shit behind my back when they think I'm not listening. Just because I have my dang earphones on doesn't mean I'm not eavesdropping. When I try to socialize with them and show my good side, they still treat me like shit. What the hell have I done to you to treat me that way? The only time I got a little bit of friendly treatment was singing. Again. And they tell me like "how do you reach F6", "you have a good voice", "since when were you singing". I appreciate the compliments, but you treated me like shit for the first 4 months or so of fourth year. It's laced with sycophantic shit and not respect. I hate that. I don't treat you like dirt. I just want to be left alone to do the stuff I like to do, like I leave you to go do your stuff.

At least it's all over since March 27, the day of my graduation. NOPE. They're part of my life now. I can't exactly rewrite my past, now can I? What I need to do is to keep history from repeating itself and make college life worth it. Without big regrets, without mistakes to scar me, without emotions getting in my way to success, without imperfection. I'm going to the national university. I'll meet new people. What terrifies and angers me is the possibility of being treated like shit again. I can't tolerate it anymore. I can't think normally while befriending others. I think "how do I make him stick with me as a great friend and someone to shield me too?". I've done a lot of deflecting already, and it seems like something that will never be erased from my personality. I am a good shield and a sharp sword. I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO BE TOSSED AROUND LIKE A DIRTBAG ANYMORE. I WILL NOT ALLOW ANYTHING BAD TO HAPPEN TO MY FRIENDS BECAUSE I'VE WEATHERED THROUGH THE UNDESERVED HATE I'VE BEEN THROUGH. No more discrimination against me and the people often brought down because they're different.

Now onward to this community. The forums.

It's cool that no one has left a very deep cut on me. I got GREAT FRIENDS. But I'm always the first to be ignored and mistreated. For example, I post something, but I don't expect likes or follows because, honestly, it's still true that almost nobody here cares about me. I know. I got Map, Athens, Yomc, Demon, other buddies I won't name because it's not that relevant here.

Point is, if for example, I join a Skype or TS call, I don't really speak. Why? Because NO ONE WOULD LISTEN. Here, I am bilingual. I think in my native language. To speak in English is hard for me, as most of the time, I'm talking to Aussies, Americans, and even Europeans. And they tend to speak good English. When I try opening up, no one is there to listen to my opinion. It's also because I don't really understand Aussie accents (sorry Map, it took me three hours of listening you talk to Roc to fully grasp the difference of our accents) and even European. Talking to Americans is a whole different story. I have to speak fast. If I speak fast, I'll do so in lightning speed, and I don't expect anyone to understand Engligibberish. Yeah. I feel left out.

I also feel like I have the burden to adjust to everything. For example, I talk to Map in a COMPLETELY random way. Honestly, she's the only one I could talk to without compromising my freedom of expression. I can spam her without her saying stop. She says it's fun reading all the spammy shit I send her. I can spam her with emoticons and random stuff. But to others, I have to see first how they chat. Like to Yomc. I talk in a more formal way because, well, that's how he chats. If I talk to Athens, it's a good mix of randomness and formality. If I talk to everyone else, it's completely restraining my good side. I'm also in a skype convo with Map and Yomc, and it amazes me how Map can still be her funny self while talking to Yomc of all people. And I can't do that. It's just like... "I have to live up to everybody's expectations and I can't blow it". It's restricting me from being myself as I'd love to, but I can't help it. It's fucking infuriating.

That's all.

 

Nice topic
What makes me angry is this pathetic world and these humans that don't know what they do, always waiting to be ordered around and taking whatever they like, they're killing and lying just for thier will, what a horrible waste of humans.

 

Oh, boy.
Ignorance. Why do people have to be stupid? It's so dumb. So many things can fall into this, too.
Racism. It doesn't make sense. It's like saying that someone's terrible because of... I was about to say hair color but honestly it could be anything. Why are people racist? Just because of an old historical trend? How ignorant can you get?
Homophobia - both the word and the concept. So people like people of the same gender. I get it, it's weird to you. And literally speaking (people always think I say this out of context), it isn't normal. Homosexuality doesn't follow life's natural desire to reproduce. No, homosexuals are not normal people. But just like people with mental disorders, does that mean you hate them for it? No. What difference does what they naturally like and want make to you? It's not like they chose to be homosexual. The word "homophobia" should be renamed, too. People against homosexuals, no matter how ignorant they may be, aren't scared of them. Call it something else, and stop throwing it around everywhere. Adding onto that, I'm all for gay rights. I have LGBT friends. But don't go around like "I know lots of homosexual people. Man, our town has a lot of them. That's a challenge that the rest of the county will have to follow." Yeah, no. Everyone's equal. Homosexuality isn't better than heterosexuality, and vice versa. They're equal and deserve no different perspectives.
People that... I don't know, just, people. People think dumb things. Why do people have to do that? Why can't everyone agree? Why do people have to fight in their dumb useless arguments where no one wins?
Why do people have to hate change? Why do people have to hate opinions? Why do people think that hatred solves everything?
And then... Me. Why did I have to be born like... This? With ADD, a mental disorder that makes me at a focus disadvantage in comparison to others? With extreme Paranoia, making me afraid of going out of the house most days? With OCD, making others wonder just why I'm tapping my fingers symmetrically? That's another thing, too - STOP SAYING YOU HAVE OCD WHEN YOU DON'T. Most people have ticks and tendencies. People with actual OCD have it worse. Maybe I'm dumb to be offended by it, but I guess I'm dumb then.
My family expects worlds from me just because my IQ tops 140. So? So what? Just because I'm smart means nothing.
Yet no one else respects intelligence. They all would rather go with the people that are popular.
Why am I so socially inept? Why can't I do that too? Why can't I make more friends? I mean, I've been able to, and I can carry out a normal conversation, but I can't think of results to crazy random things on the spot.
Why do I have such a terrible self-image? I hate myself a lot. I see myself as terrible. It's pathetic... And the sadder part is that I'm not even attention whoring. Why do people attention whore? Why am I even writing this? I'll just look like one if I do. Why do I care?
People think that they know me and they never do. People think that they can predict me and they're wrong. I know other people too well because I can relate with them, but they can't relate with me. No one, and I mean no one, save like two or three people, gets me on this website. And they never will. And that's my own fault.
Why have I just been blindly following what you've been telling me this whole time? Maybe you're right. It's true. But that doesn't excuse you. Accepting emotion has just left me pent up with anger. Other things too, but anger is there. So you know what? Do both me and all of us a favor, and go fuck yourself. Then you can laugh in a week when I say hi to you as if I never posted this. Oho, and you know who you are. Time wasted, emotion wasted... And now that it's back, it's a shame that you'll never accept it.
Poetry. Why do I have to make poetry? Why do I pride myself in that? I feel so stupid doing it. It's not even modern poetry.
Why have I failed in literally everything?
And why, even though I've failed, will people idolize me and expect so much?
Why doesn't anyone get it? A better question - why doesn't anyone get life?
Because at this current rate, I might not fail in school, or in normal life in general. I might excel in that, even.
But deep down inside is where I know that I've truly failed. Why do I have to care?
Is this even a rant? Yes. Yes, I think so. It's a rant on everything. Especially me.
/rant over