I've come to think of this

Well, recently I've been thinking. And no, for those off you are pilosopo (term which I cannot exactly describe well in English) I've been thinking deeply. We all have religions. There are Catholics, Buddhists, Atheists, Wiccans, etc. My religion is Catholic yet, my faith isn't 100% catholic. For some reason which I cannot simply describe without thinking beyond imaginable manners, I believe in reincarnation. Yes I know, Catholics don't believe in Reincarnation for only our savior Jesus Christ can/could. But, there is this feeling inside of me that we are reincarnated. I still believe in God and all but, I believe there is a twist in all of this. If you think about it, we are all souls. No matter how hard it is to admit, we are all souls just in temporary bodies. In the Catholic Bible, it says that once we die, our bodies die and our souls go back to God our Father. Yet, it sounds like once we die we are dead and that's it. I've wondered, since I never died (or at least recalling not to die), what is it like in Heaven ? And, if we are in Heaven won't we all become overcrowded one day because of the constant amount of births and deaths ? (Yes I know it's stupid but it's just a 'What if') Also, we Catholics believe there is a place called Purgatory. It's basically a waiting place for those souls who are still being decided if they go to Heaven or Hell. Now, this has gotten me thinking that while your waiting in Purgatory, your going to be sent back to Earth. In my opinion, this is to somewhat 'retest' if your worthy for Heaven or Hell. So, your given a new life and all and stuff, I've come to remembering all the times my mother has said to me, 'I'll love you forever. No matter where you are I'll always love you till the ends of the Earth'. You see, this line bugs me a bit. Since I some what believe in Reincarnation (until it's time to truly go to God our Father), does this mean that she'll not love me forever then ? Think of it this way, when your born, you don't know anything right ? Since I believe in reincarnation, when I'm reborn, will the mother whose taking care of me is my original mother ? I state this because, it's possible when you die your parents aren't dead yet so it's clearly possible to have different parents. Also, when your parents die they won't remember you when reincarnated (remember this is what I somewhat believe in). So with all of this, I come to this question. This very simple question yet it's hard to explain for as alive we don't know the answer yet. Is there something called permanent love ? You could simply say yes yet, it's rather hard to explain if you think of it deeply. This has honestly been tearing my life little by little for who knows how long 2 years now ? I don't really know maybe even more. I'm sorry if I've wasted your time or angered you people. I just really needed some place to let this all go and express because if I told my parents this they would send me somewhere (IDK where though might bring me to a Church with a lot of priests) . So once again sorry and if you read this Thank You for reading.

 

tl dr ?