Stuff that has been long awaited.

Off topic for a second here, just found a fan-fiction called Allegrezza...it was beautiful. Then, playing the ending with "Doomsday" DW music, I found myself crying for the first time in a long while...people...oh, wonderful people. I love you all :)


Back on topic...here is the long awaited apology thread.

So, so many people have told me that the hardest thing to do is apologize...and they weren't lying. I wish they were, so many times. Apologizing is admitting your mistakes, and taking responsibility for them. Why this is so hard for the human mind is stupid.

To start this whole thing off, I need to apologize to the community. For my many actions and posts before I got banned, were wrong and uncalled for. I was immature back then. Hell, I still am. None of us are perfect. None of us are fully mature. We all have that bit of immaturity in us. No matter how old we are, or how small it is: it's there. It will stay there, unless you work to improve.

I apologize to those I attacked while I was here before. You know who you are, and we hopefully already made amends. But if we haven't...could you please...please step forward?

The large bit of the community I need to apologize to...are the ones who stood by me, and followed me to the end. You...you guys are beautiful for doing it. It pains me to tell you that you followed the wrong man.

"Don't look for me in the spotlight
Don't think that I am the one
Who brightens your lives,
And endlessly strives,
To live a life in the sun.

...

That I am no hero
I can't answer your prayers
No matter how I feel inside
I know that nobody cares

...

Far from the light, away from the path
That all the righteous have tread,
But I'll never lie, no I'll never try
To claim I'm perfect instead

No I am not perfect,
I just wanna be the one you look up to
in times of need."


I just wanted to be the one ya'll looked up to...and I realize that I went about it the wrong way. I got so many of you to follow me, without thinking about your own safety. I was selfish, and lead you to your downfall.

So, I declare to all who read this...when you need help...don't call for my name.



As to the staff, I doubt this will truly be taken to quote...i'm sorry for bashing you guys so hard in the past. For accusing you...for trying to manipulate you...for attacking and hurting you...for turning others against you, and for doing the wrong thing. Specific staff such as @DWG715 , @homieboy , @ItsMira , @XenonHD , @RadeonX and @ItsJerry and @ItsHarry (I know J&H won't get an alert) - I'm deeply sorry, for making your lives harder, and everything else I've done to make it worse. As for all the other staff, the same goes for you.


I strove...so far to be like those I looked up to. Like Spaghetti. But, after seeing his actions here, as well as on the old forums...I see that I followed the wrong person entirely. I was like him: putting a negative effect on the community, thinking that I was making it better. At least I could see what I had done.


EDIT: Now, the reason I didn't send this earlier, is because I didn't want to make it look like I made it just to get back here. Also, I wanted it directly from me.

Had I sent it later, or not at all, I would have looked self-righteous. Basically, I had trouble finding when to send it.

Better late than never...

 

Oh, and @~Wolf , can ya move this to Off-Topic or somethin?

 

Done :3

 

Apology accepted :D

 

Apology...
Accepted..

 

Apology..

Spoiler: .

accepted

 

Why hasn't this been not replied to?
Apology accepted, even though I'm not even one of those angry at you :)

Also, humans are prideful, and they don't like being humiliated/ashamed. It's a negative emotion natural to us. Apologizing is hard because we feel like we become shamed.
Don't blame Spaghetti, by the way.

 

I'm not mad at you, but I'll still accept your apology.

 

I'm not trying to blame him, sorry if it comes of like that (BW, yes, I do know he's here).

I'm saying he isn't mature or a role model, like he was looked to as on the Elder Forums.

 

Dayum, the guts it must of taken ya to post this...grats

 

Most people don't have the guts to apologize, and

 

eeh, not really. I know how accepting this community is, so I wasn't expecting any criticism from anyone.

Plus, having matured lately, I know that I have to apologize. It's the right thing to do. And (I know I said this somewhere else) the truth requires little thought.

 

Even though I betrayed you a few time, I accept the apology and I also am sorry if I caused any harm or trouble for you. Hope we can put this behind us and never speak of it again

 

Apology accepted.

Also. I think you can still become the role model you wanted, you just need to take it slow and easy, and learn what is best. Do it the right way this time. :)

 

Spaghetti...I would get into a long, wall of text post about him, but he'd be to controversial to discus, just like UnGod.

He was someone who was looked up to as a Role-Model on the old forums (One of Yomc's huge influences as well), who was a negative person in general. That's all i'm going to say. Not even going to tell anyone in a convo. He's old and gone (kinda).

 

Wise choice.

 

Apology accepted.