Sigh. Another 'hate' thread, as many of you think.

Ok. So, you guys remember that thread I made.
'That thread'. Yes, ofc you do. It was that one that got 1200+ views...or was it 1300+....
ANYWAY.
So, I'm here today, to talk about more stuff.
Huh, another 'hate' thread, where you talk about hating the server??
Pffft, no.

Alright, my thread, 'The server is getting better', I know it received a LOT of hate.
No one knew what was going through my mind at that moment.

That was the weekend where people got accepted. I was in a buzz cause my friends were getting accepted.
That was also the weekend I was talking to Dmuds, kklm, and Treepid about things on the server. I learned a lot. A few hours later, I witness and have evidence of the chat between Treepid and the owners.
I'm going to type down what they said:
Treepid: Ok guys, seriously. About this whole thing that's about to be happening right now, please do not hate on Jerry & Harry.
First, I need to say something to saul. When we were in the channel, we were all having fun.
When I wanted you to join in on the fun, I didn't think you'd be all serious about it.
Saul: Well, you wanted me to join the fun by calling me a dick?
And this went on, until Jerry started 'talking' to Treepid.

After that, everything just, well, I needed to make a thread. That's my reaction to it.

I tried my very hardest, to not make the thread full of hate.
Yet, people perceived it that way.

I've been told, it's affected the outcome of my staff app, which means I've been told I'm not getting accepted. I'm going by this until either proven wrong or getting a definitive answer by high enough staff.

For two whole weeks, I haven't thought straight, nor have I had a good week.
I even got a bad score in a test today. 5/25, or 20%.
My sleep pattern has been changed, as it's harder to sleep.
I try and talk to people to relax more, and end up feeling worse.

I don't blame anyone, nor is this a leaving thread.
This is more of an explanation & an apology thread.

The new giant thread I made in server discussion, I made that to distract myself from the 'The server is getting better' thread, but, that didn't do it.

When I made that thread, I knew it wasn't going to end well. I posted it, because the information provided was sufficient enough to get a point across. I didn't expect hate, as I didn't show any hate in the thread.

To everyone:
Alright, I'm sorry for:
-Revealing some of the Helper's abilities.
-Making a thread that ended up seeming negative.
-Dragging anyone into this that shouldn't of been.
-Just being negative for two weeks.

I'm going to hopefully improve over the next few weeks.
Last thing I want to do, is make anyone unhappy.
I've had friends come to me, and say that they don't know who their real friends are now.
Sometimes, I don't even know who my real friends are. I have a small definitive list, but there's many people who I don't believe sometimes.

Last thing: What's happened on the forums has been the reason I've been inactive in game & on ts.
I should be going on the server more and more, as I've now cleared this up.

If you want to talk about anything:
Skype: jrbsterbudder.
In this thread, I wish not to tell everyone important stuff. Last time it didn't end well.

 

You make the best threads.

 

Feel better, Map.
I don't usually reply to this type of thread because a.) I feel like I'll make a really retarded reply, b.) TL;DR (I did fully read this one though) or c.) I just don't want to take part in the arguement.
But Map, I consider you a friend, and I want you to know that I have your back. ;)
Hope you get well really bonkin' soon. ;P

 

Ahaha, yes, as do I.
Although I was depressed for a long time, I have never felt this way before. It's weird, and that's why I'm not reacting as well as I can other problems.
You are one of the few I consider friends.
I can explain in great details, either through skype or inbox. Just ask ._.

 

Inbox, plz.
I don't give my Skype to that many people (but I'll probably give you mine eventually).

 

I still luv u doe :)

 

Hey u lied to my u do hav skype:) also I hope u sleep better it's sucks when u can't sleep ur then really grouchy and it's a pain for every1 even u I've been thought that and so anyway can we skype:-)

 

My Skype only just started working ;-; and yes, if you wish

 

Thanks :)

 

You shouldn't really be letting something on the internet affect your school grades though :P

 

tis yer fault for getting a 20%

 

Ahm..

Well Mappy, no matter what you do, you're still my turtle.

 

:3

Best thing is, not only do I get to re-sit the test, people got LOWER than me. And it wasn't my fault, as I was kinda on Skype during class and we were talking about the server, and I was also in a noisy classroom trying to rush it.