I've been diagnosed with...

I am bipolar.

Yesterday, I took a visit for some screening for my anxiety, if you know me, you'll already know I go to therapy for my stress.

They determined this:

• My anxiety could be caused by the extreme stress given to me by external events (such as Minecraft)
• My anxiety could be caused by an undiscovered disorder (bipolar, depression)

They decided that the second option made more sense, and I went into further screening for being Bipolar.
I do believe that this was brought down in the family from my Dad. You can see it disrupt my work ethic on the forums as well. I get angry, sad, happy, confident, unconfident all in one day.

They also determined this:

• The disorder could be too far along therefor causing it to be untreatable
• It can be treated with therapy

Whilst we hope it's not the first one, we still don't know. I just wish I had the chance to be "normal" and see how much better I would be as a staff member if I was. Me being Bipolar caused my problems.

Well, that's all I have to say. Real-Life, tough shit. Welcome to 2017.

 

I support you fully on this, nobody's perfect.

Regardless of what ever disorder you have, in my eyes, you're a staff member who still puts so much effort into the role. You shouldn't let anyone else convince you otherwise, keep up the good work :)

 

The amount of shit from ppl (myself included) you've put up with despite being bipolar is pretty incredible, so in comparison there's no way you can't get though treatment ez ;P

 

Well, an update I guess.

I’ve gone on a vacation now, currently in Santiago. It’s really taken my mind off of things and overall I feel happier.

Thank you for the support.

 

This really sucks. I hope you get well friend and beat depression

 

In addition to what I said earlier, I’ve slept incredibly well with a regular sleeping schedule instead of busting my ass off trying to keep everyone happy.

In a way, I’m too busy keeping everyone else happy that I’m forgetting to keep myself happy at the same time.

 

<3 <3 <3
Support anytime ya need
I know the pain of having depression and anxiety, I can totally relate.
Hmu on discord if ya feeling down. Ill be happy to help anytime
<3 <3 <3

 

sorry to change the mood but like you don't seem too depressed, you're coming to a minecraft forum

 

thats no fun, is it.
i know i have something imbalanced because i'm sad literally most of the time. i've started to embrace it, though. turning it into music and art.
no point in trying to "fit in" and be "normal" just because other people say.
maybe you should do the same.

sorry ill go lel

 

I have no where else to go, so.

To me, and to a lot of people, it’s not just a Minecraft forum. I play Minecraft because I want to become an architect some day, and if I’m not building I’m having fun.

It’s the only place I can feel that somebody cares about me sometimes.

 

Don't your parents care if you're happy or not cuz they should

 

They do, that’s why I’m on vacation.

But sometimes you can’t share everything with your parents.

 

You should though. They are your parents and the most trust worthy people in ur life

 

I don't know too much about your condition, but I hope you can get overcome it.

 

I know how you feel, I have depression myself. Good luck in getting past all your problems.

 

While I applaud your parents for carefully constructing the ideal environment in which you would feel this way about talking with them, unfortunately not everyone feels this way about speaking with their parents; some people wish to keep things to themselves because they are afraid of how their parents will react (whether those reactions be anger, fear, disappointment, rejection, or sadness).

 

Why expect them to be and act abusive when he literally said in his posts above that they care about him? The fact that he realized that is a big step. From what I've read I dont think he has tried to talk to them so I suggest him to give it a shot. Start from the simple things, dont go straight to the "coming out stuff". I'm saying this for myself too, we are still kids and trust me I know you believe that your thoughts and your beliefs are going to stay the same for the rest of your life but they won't. Three years ago for example I told my mom I was an atheist and gay (lol). I was 13 I was dumb as shit and she almost kicked my ass. As years past I changed and I tried to know myself better cuz that's the whole point of puberty . My thoughts and beliefs are still going to change but for now, this is me. From my experience, I have been to therapists and the reason why I went was because my parents didn't have any experience on my issue whatsoever. So for me the only time you should talk to a trusted adult other than your parents are when you realize that they wont give you the right advice.

 

I'm sorry, I don't remember implying any such abusiveness. I mentioned anger or rejection as 2 possibilities among a list of potential reactions. Tence decided to focus on those two more in his response to my post.

I am aware that Expe said his parents were good to him, but even so, they may not know how to react properly or in a way that comes across as supportive as would be needed.

There may be a sense of shame associated with be afflicted by a mental illness which makes it difficult to be open with those close to you for fear of hurting them or yourself. There is nothing wrong with having such a disability, but nonetheless some parents just aren't aware of how to best accommodate the needs that come with mental illness in general.

Expe, it would definitely be a good idea to see a therapist, perhaps with your parents if you are comfortable with them coming along, so that you can have a professional explanation of how to best proceed with your diagnosis.